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Luahan & Gelodak di Jiwa
Andai hidup punca perpisahan, biarlah mati menyambungnya semula...
Namun seandainya mati punca perpisahan, biarlah hidup ini membawa erti yang nyata....
Jika aku bukan pelita yang mampu menerangi malam..
Memadailah aku menjadi kunang-kunang yang menemani dikegelapan..
"Life is to be fotified by many friendships. To love and be loved is the greatest happiness. Fate determines who comes into our lives. The heart determines who stays..."
Kenangan itu kadangkala teramat pahit untuk diredah, tetapi ia terlalu manis untuk dikenang. Hidup tak selalunya indah tapi yang indah itu tetap hidup dalam kenangan.Andainya hadirnya cinta sekadar untuk mengecewakan, lebih baik cinta itu tak pernah hadir.Kecewa bercinta bukan bermakna dunia sudah berakhir.Masa depan yang cerah berdasarkan pada masa lalu yang telah dilupakan.Hidup ini indah jika kita tahu menghargainya. .. Tapi ia amat menyakitkan andai kita melaluinya sambil lewa...
last modified Jun 15, 2007 at 22:01
aiyak dah nak masuk new year!!! lagi beberapa minit je.. so... u guys.. nothing much to say loh... SELAMAT TAHUN BARU!! Jangan lupaaa resolutions!!! Jangan lupa pesan PM.. jangan lalai.. ingat apa yg dah jadi.. amik iktibar.. hu hu hu..
cik siti.. ingat gak yer... don't play around!!
har..har.. aku bakal jadik nenek!!! keh keh keh.. nenek siti.. ahehehe..
eshk.. let put tis way.. sonok mmg sonok.. tapi, takotnye nak bidan kan mimi nanti... mimi tu dah ar muda lagi.. tau ke dia jaga baby??? kena beli botol susu lah.. uhuks.. risaunye... tadi masa rehat masa solat jumaat, aku bawak mimi pi check up.. doc tanye bila dia mating?? alaermak.. mana la aku tau.. huhuhu, tadi dah beli sangkar besar siket... ok la tu.. kalau mimi tak selesa nanti, leh le guna utk letak... lepas mandikan dia... cewah.. aku beli preparation sesiket.. beli makanan kitten, kasi mimi makan.. sebab ada susu lam makanan tu.. senang utk tulang dia.. beli makanan dalam tin (fancy feats...fav mimi..simba & cd), beli towel utk mimi.. keh keh keh.. (murah jak laa...) tapi, so farrrrr.. macam mimi suka jeee... kelaka kan.. eeee!!
bestnyerr..... tak sabarrrrrrr...
ni mimi beraksi tepi sangakr.. perut tak beso lagi.. tapi dah berat.. aiyak.. posing tepi sangkar baru.. ahaks...
ppppehhh... penatnye.. makan sket nya banyak....lupa nak amik picture menu dia, ahaks... macam..macam ada.... ni gamba masa depa-depa tengah makan.....
mana aku ekk?? he he he.. lupa lak.. aku tukang amik gamba.. tader tersenarai lam tuuu...
ni pulak, pakwer-pawer kat ofis.. tengah dok membakar... tengah tunggu turn..
ni plak mak2 dara n anak2 dara.. jejejejejeee.. comei kan?? tehehehe... cuba la teka... mana satu mak dara... mana satu anak dara.. keh keh keh
opsssssss... bos!!! he he he.... bila abeh makan..posing jangan tak posing.....amboi!!
afer pon... we're having fun lor... ni gamba reramai ni!!! macam kenduri lak...
Enjoy the story and ponder the moral behind it.....
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped infront of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of thecar in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, Iwent into business and tried to make more money. When the assets weresteadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was acivil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost atthe same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was morelikely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me frombehind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was theapartment I bought for her. Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her wordssuddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Menlike you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking ofthis, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so. I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, becauseI had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea ofdivorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be somethingimpossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter howmildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was agood wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting infront of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was loungingbefore the computer, visualizing Dew s body. This was the means of my entertainment. One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what willyou do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. Icouldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all thestaff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide somethingwhile talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiledat my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we livetogether. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got something totell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know whatI was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly. She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned herangry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! .At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew shewanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardlygive her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated thatshe could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glancedat it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman whohad been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But Icould not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected tosee. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce whichhad obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer. A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw herwriting something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I foundshe was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, butI was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the months time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: ourson would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didnt want him tosee our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do youstill remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? Thisquestion suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I noddedand said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, Ihave a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day whenwe divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out fromthe bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished toend her marriage with a romantic form. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly andthought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face theresult of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feeluncomfortable. My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention wasexplicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when Icarried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clappedbehind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a senseof pain. >From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and saidsoftly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feelingsomewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, Idrove to office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on mychest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. Irealized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a longtime. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles onher face. On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is beingdemolished. Be careful when you pass there. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were stillan intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. Thevisualization of Dew became vaguer. On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, whereshe put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn t tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made mestronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quitea few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresseshave grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because shewas thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a senseof pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said. Tohim, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part ofhis life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. Iturned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the lastminute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sittingroom, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. Iheld her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her muchlighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Ourson had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in yourarms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn't notice that our life waslack of such intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid anydelay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened thedoor. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I am serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only saysorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably becauseshe and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love eachother any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, shegave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I haveto say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed thedoor and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wifewhich was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.
huarghh.. letihnye....
dah pukul 12.03 malam... esok start kerja.. aduhai... aduhai... nak cakap per aaarrr... ooo citer hari ni...
dalam kol 6.30 aku dah bangun.. mama kejut tadi.. then teringat abg azim.. kesian dia tau.. entah la... payah nak cakap... faul laaaaa...macam ni.. ceritanya...
Tadi kol 11.30 am dah start nak gerak pi jumpa abg azim, last2 shuk tanya nak pi mana.. aku cakap la nak pi PACIFIC... tah, apa kena.. dia nak ikot... cakap dedepan abah ngan mama.. memula aku cakap, tayah! pehtu abah pandang semacam je..sebab nak cover line... aku cakap yer aaa... yer aaa.. JOM laaa!! ala..spiol laa!! pehtu tunggu budak2 tu siap dah 20 minit.. adoiii.. sian abg azim tunggu lagik... pehtuuu.. pehhtu.. call abg azim cakap bebudak ni nak ikot.. dia sempoi je cakap.."tak pe laa... bolehh" erkk... errrkkk... aku pun.. rasa lega la... rasa tayah pening kepala..
Sampai je Travel Lodge (tempat abg menginap) depa salam2.. pehtu abg azim kasik aku surat.. pehtu sepanjang perjalanan semer dok senyap.. aku cuba la buka topic.. buka memacam..
Aaaiyak.. abg azim pon sporting, dia pon buka citer gak, dia cita pagi tadi kecoh pasal gegaran kat tempat Travel Lodge tu.. gegar leh rasa kat sini tau.. kat Perai, even kat Kulim.. uishk, kuat ek!! Tuh ha, gegaran berlaku sebab di Indon berlaku gempa bumi... kejadian berlaku dalam kol 900am pagi tadi lorr... aku yang kat Kulim pon leh rasa tau.. katil gegar oOOo.. aku ingat ape menda.. takott...
and tis is wat happened... (tarikh yg perlu diingati...)
AT Thailand
AT Acheh, Indonesia
AT Sri Lanka, India
MENAKJUBKKKAN!!! Allah Maha Besar...
alamakkkk... sori.. sorii.. macam iklan jab kat atas...
Dalam 30 minit pastu kami pon sampai Megamall.. aku ngan abg azim bawak arah kami la.. kami tgk movie jam 2.15.... Kung Fu Hustle.. pehh.. leh tahan la.. kelaka la jugak.. ahaks..actor dia aku mmg suka tgk.. lepas habis movie bebudak tu anta sms cakap depa tunggu kat starbucks.. aku ngan abg azim pi jumpa bebudak tu kat sana.. jumpa kejab jak.. pehtu kami pi KFC, makan... makan.. makan.. sesambil tuh main games Ulor.. ahaks.. guna bluetooth.. cewah.. best la plaks.. eee yer la.. best sebab aku je asyik menang.. isk.. isk isk isk isk (kasik chance kot... ) pehtu.. tak sedar, kami dok lepak sana sampai kol 5.30pm.. pehtu.. pehtuu... nak habaq ni.. ni la part yang tak best.. part aku benci sangat... aku tinggalkan abg kat PACIFIC, Megamall sensorang!!! nak tinggal dia sampai kol 8.00pm.. uhuks.. ni sebab nak hanta bebudak tu balik umah.. then kol 8.30pm aku nak kena mai amik abg azim plak.. tapi kali ni ajak anip teman.. dia tlg cover line aku.. sib baik... dahtu aku, abg azim & anip pi carrefour beli barang angah & suar sekolah anip ngan MMC Card (ni pon anip punya... up to date btol la) adoi.. aku tgk muka abg letih je... rasa bersalah makin menebal.. aku tatau nak cakap cemana dah.. hummmm.. sian dia... pehtu sharp 9.30pm.. aku trus anta dia pi Bus Station.. sampai je Perai, dia cakap tayah turun... ni lagik rasa bersalah.. uhuks.. aku rasa dia mmg tak larat dah tau... bila dia hilang dari mata.. baru aku balik.. dalam keta anip pon cakap.. sian abg azim.. uhuks... sian kan.. mesti dia tak saba nak balik rumah..
Ni bila online.. jumpe syidah.. dia tanya macam mana date arik ni... aku pun, citer semer2 yang berlaku.. dia cakap..
aku.. FAUUULLLLL!!! dapat card merah.. kuar padang...!!! uwaaa..!!! uwa!! takleh main dah till next season... bila nye season aku nak main tatau laa..... asyik tak menjadik je aku nie...
sedis nye.. sedis laa..
faul!! aku faul!! mesti abg azim tanak kawan aku dah...
my fault.. my fault...
peh... grand eh nama tu... ALAMANDA, Putrajaya...
Plan baru!! Plan baru... syidah ajak pi ALAMANDA, berkemungkinan dijangka pi dalam 15th January onwards.. time ni.. syidah dah cuti.. so, ingat nak pi jalan2 kat KL.. pehtu salah satu plan yang diusul nak pi ALAMANDA.. tempat baru tuu... wooohuuuuu.. cam menarik jak.. saja nak bukak mata & minda.. lama dah dok pejam celik.. celi pejam kat Taiping tu... tak larat dah.. bak kata orang tua-tua "jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan..."
peh.. dah jumpe Abang, keh keh keh keh.. kurus.. dannnnnnn tinggi.. giler tinggi... kalau berdiri, aku kena dongak tengok dia... uwaaa.. aku pendek.. aku pendek... isk isk isk.. saba je..
aahh.. lantak la... tuh ha tak tau nak cakap ape..
tadi lepas amik abg azim, aku teman abg azim pi check in kat Travel Lodge kat Perai... amik suite room.. sebab tu je tinggal.. ingat nak suh tido kat Inn kat Kulim jee... tapi, penuh.. aku ulang lagik sekali, PENUH.. Sri Malaysia Penuh.. Kulim Inn Penuh.. Kulim Hotel Penuh.. esk esk esk.. saaaabaq je.. tak pecaya... mana mai semer org tu.. ehehehe... masa lunch tadi aku jenuh pikiq tatau nak tempah penginapan abg azim kat mana... tetiba rasa ada lodge kat tepi perai tu... so, lepas amik abg azim.. saja je pi tgk cemana... ummmm.. reception tu cakap ada bilik suite je... aku malas la nak carik kat tpt lain.. budjet ada... so, comfirm je la amik... reception tu cakap ada 2 je lagik kosong.. nak, tak nak.. agree je la...tuh je larat nak carik..
pehtu.. aku bawak abg azim pi makan McD.. isk isk isk.. sian abg azim.. sure lapo... tapi makan buger je.. haiyer.... lepas tu dalam 630pm, aku anta abg azim balik lodge.. aku pon balik umahhhhh... sampai umah.. syukur abah & anip tak balik agik... kalau tak, sure kena punyeee.. kena apa?? kena tanye.. he he he..
sekian..
ho ho ho... Merry Christmas!!
psttt..psssttt.. today!! harik bersejarah utk aku & abg azim... he's coming to town... ahhahaha.. macam santa clause lak... dah ler krismas ni.. can't believe it! isk isk isk... akan sampai ke Butterworth around 4.00pm... i'll let u knoe end of the stories later k...
hermmm.. psal plan nak celebrate NEW YEAR kat KL, maybe tak jadik.. syidah ada exam on 2nd of Jan 2005, so.. nut enoug time la.. kang tekejar2 lak.. sian syidah.. (tak pe b, i'll understand.. aku tak kisah.. tak lariknya KL tu.. lain kali kita pi laa.. baik kita dok kat umah tengok lam TV... best gak kan??) huhuhu... aku pon on 31st December, 2004 still kerja lagik.... tak sempat nak apply cuti.. Semer org kat department aku, including all the bosses dah apply dulu.. keh keh keh..... emm.. lajuk betul.. sabaq je.. amik keputusan.. cancel je lah plan tu...
(waaa.. nanti raya indu la kat office tu... hehehheeeee....)
So, set up a new plan... kami akan pi BBQ Dinner je la kat Tanjung Bungah, Penang on 30th December, 2004 nanti... yeah, awal sehari nak sambut New Year, kan?? tak kisah laa.. i'll be seeing syidah baby over there loh... BBQ Dinner ni join skalik dengan staff2 company... (SAPER NAK JOIN???) staff, maybe tak semua yang pergi kot... sebab on 31st ada yang keje kan... (aku salah sorangnye.....) syiOoOk ke tak?? dunno lor...
Hoping everything went well... chalOoOO...
heEeEErrrKkkkkk... adoi.. pedih anak tekak ni... tuhlungg... tuhlungg...tak larat nak minum ayaq asam dah... arik tu demam ingat dah baik.. ni sambung balik daa~.... satu-satu kena.. isk isk isk... tak sempat nak makan obat..
tis week keja banyak sangat.. not enough hands to do lor... sib baik kak aznee ada membantu.. huhuhu... hari Rabu lepas.. balik keje kol 1am.. sok pagi, masuk keje weng weng kepala.. fening... rasa.. khayal je, sebab ngantuk.. syukur tadak keja pagi tu.... petang sambung kerja sampai pukul 7.30pm... then... HABIS... dah habis KERJA!! macam tak percayaaaa je.. erghhhhhhhh.... lega rasanya... lepas ni nak buat ape plak ek.. ah.. tak pe lah.. kita tengok macam mana...
isk isk isk.. tahun baru makin hampir... hurmm!! what do i achive tis year eh.. **thinking** guessing, guessing... hah!! only a few things i can't & manage to do tis year... so, carry foward le nampaknye... so... how about you guys & gurls out there... any new resolutions?? or ending up just like me... ahahaha... eiyer... siti...siti... harap2 jangan laa...
as for me.. everyday... my life getting worst... bored.. bored.. more bored... **tersedar** EErghhh!! Eh!!! sabar jer.... bersyukur siti.. bersukur apa yg ada, apa yang berlaku semua dugaan (macam kata p.ramlee..) , tuh la manusia kan...(aku tujukan utk aku.. jgn ada yg terasa lak...) idup tak pernah nye bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.... ada masa & waktu.. disia2kan.. ada peluang pun disia2kan.. apa nak jadik... esk esk esk.. siti.. siti.. dulu aku ada seorg kawan, (skang pon still berkawan cuma jarak memisahkan) dia selalu buat aku berfikir.. buat aku rasa NAK cuba jadik INSAN lebih baik then before... cewah (berangan tak salah kan..) kita hidup dalam process belaja... besa la ada salah silap.. ( orang putih cakap, process of learning la tu... ) lepas tu, bila makin dewasa (aahak!!) aku rasa aku patut berubah & set up my goal - aku nak jadikan diri aku yang sentiasa dalam keadaan positive... yang sentiasa redha.. setia.. ikhlas.. membantu yg memerlukan.. lebihkan masa utk family.. bla...bla.. bla.. (banyak lagik, kang bebel pulak.... ) sekarang apa yang boleh dikatakan... alhamdulillah, rasa hidup!! alive!! cheerfull then before... (even bored sometimes... apa la siti...) but deep down.. hanya tuhan je yang tahu..
bila terkadang teringat kan rakan2, bersyukur ada kawan spt dia.. skang ni, dia dah jauh la plak... aiyak.. doakan kebahagian & kejayaan utk dia... dulu, selalu dtg umah & buat diskusi ngan dia.. tak kira la apa pun topic.. ada rasa keinsafan dalan diri jap, pehtu... (naik tanduk balik.. ahahaha...) tapi setiap hari aku akan cuba buat yg terbaik... not for me.. utk semua org disekeliling aku.. aku tamo buang masa dah.. tammo berangan dah.. I want to do, what i really want to be..
aku nie.. eeeshkkk... kalau dibandingkan ngan org lain, kehidupan aku jauh lebih baik... kan kan kan... sian org yg tak cukup makan, tak der rumah.. tak de parents.. tak der baju... humm... patutnya aku lebih3 bersyukur, semua yang berlaku tu.. dugaan n iktibar untuk aku...
To my friends who are NOT SO SINGLE...
Love isn?t about becoming somebody
else?s perfect person. It?s about finding someone
who helps you become the best person you can be....
To my friends who are PLAYBOY/PLAYGIRL TYPE...
Never say I love you if you don?t care. Never talk
about feelings if they aren?t there. Never touch a
life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the
eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy
can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he
doesn?t intend to catch her fall and it works both
ways.
To my friends who are MARRIED...
Love is not about Its your fault., but Im sorry..
Not Where are you?, but Im right here..
Not How could you?, but I understand.. Not I
wish you were., but Im thankful you are..
To my friends who are ENGAGED...
The true measure of compatibility is not the years
you spent together but how good you are for each
other.
To my friends who are HEARTBROKEN...
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as
deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not
how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
To my friends who are NAIVE...
How to be in love: Fall but dont stumble, be
consistent but not too persistent, share and never
be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and
get hurt but never keep the pain.
To my friends who are POSSESSIVE...
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy
with someone else but its more painful to know
the one you love is unhappy to you.
To my friends who are AFRAID TO CONFESS...
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It
hurts more when someone breaks up with you. But
love hurts the most when the person you love has
no idea how you feel.
To my friends who are STILL HOLDING ON...
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone
and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it
was never meant to be and that you have wasted
years on someone who wasnt worth it. If he isnt
worth it now, hes not going to be worth it a year or
10 years from now. Let go.
To ALL MY FRIENDS...
My wish for you is a man/woman whose love is
honest, strong, mature, never changing, uplifting,
protective, encouraging, rewarding, and unselfish. (",)
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy, but often it hurts, but loves only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.....
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hermmm... agree with it... i just hope tat one day i find someone that is right for me.. ahaks... kelaka la pulak.. never tot of it.. bila dah akhir thn ni baru rasa umur makin meningkat.. allaaahaii.. to my one n only eeda (ceewah...) i just hope tat u already met the right person for u.. cubalah eeda... buka hatimu... boosss kecik tu macam ok je.... 
uwaaaaaaaaaa... teringat kat mimi... mimi kena tinggal kat Taiping.. uhuks.. sian dia dok lam umah sorang-sorang... buat ape tu ek.. ek.. :(
uwaaaaaaaa....... ingat nak balik Taiping skang jugak!! uhuks.. ni anip punya keje la nie... aerghhh...
hu hu hu, cantik pulak tgk n-gage ni.. esk esk esk.. ni cerita pasal anip, dia dah beli N-gage yang diidamkan... hummm... abah dah cakap tak payah, nanti dapat result PMR.. kalau bagus abah hadiah kan.. tapi, biasa la.. budak2... tak sabaq.. dia turun Carrefour, Seberang Jaya... then dapat la hp Model N-gage ni.. adoi... isk isk isk.. dah dapat, suka bukan main... tah arr.. kalau ikut aku ngan angah dulu.. eee.. sorry la nak dapat ape2 pon...nak minta pon takot.. agaknya rezeki anip....
HUuuhuu... balik je Carrefour... lepas Maghrib... abah cakap kena pi kenduri khawen Ah Onn.. hum.. malas pulak nak pi, dah la tak mandi sesiap ape pon lagik... abah suruh jugak pi.. hesh hesh.. lepas dipertimbangkan.. oleh sebab Ah Onn dgn abah baik.. & abah pun dah janji... terpaksa la aku pi.. fenat.. sebab satu hari asyik makan.. rasa macam dipam pam... boleh ke cakap cam tu.. sabar jer... hu hu hu...
esk esk tekejutnye bila dapat berita dari dquan373, ada kapal jatuh kat umah c'dah!! godd... try dapatkan kepastian, anta sms kat c'dah... hu hu hu.. betol la news tu, c'dah pon turut berada kat tempat kejadian.. isk isk isk.. mujur la.. dia tadak pe pe.. owner situ, c'dah cakap dapat pampasan.. best eh.. ehehhee.. 'sib ko tak de pe pe b, dah ar lom kawen agik...' ahahahahha... mlm ni masuk news kot.. kapal terbang tu jatuh kat tepi umah c'dah lak tu... dekat-dekat la...... heiyer, menurut laporan c'dah, ramaiiii pilot ensem!! ahahhaa.. tu tak tahan nak gelak..rugi aku tadak kat sana.. wakakakkakaa... yg lagi best, camera rtm tepi c'dah... isk isk lenkali dok la depan kamera... ehehhhe.. esk esk esk.. tu kejadian ke 2 dalam thn ni.. humm...
ngantukkkkkkkkkkkkkk.. ngantukkkkkkkkkk nyeeeeeee!! kejeeeee ke ari ni!! malasnyeeeeeeee........
sesampai je opis.. ada citer hangat.. kak aznee citer pasal puteh kena pangey en. othman ari tu.. aesh esh esh ehs... ada ka patut..
lepas sarapan, aku tgk ada miss call & msg dari c'dah... pehtu, call cik c'dah.. ahahaha... kelakar... rindu giler kat pempuan tu.. :P ada la topic yg dibincangkan.. pehtu ngumpat pasal dquan...(hehehe.. wei!! ada batuk/tesedak tak mr dquan373??)
masa lunch aku sempat call abg long ngan haikal... (asyik dok teringat², tak call² pon... la ni, tak lengah dah.. sementara hp leh call out.. pe lagik...) ada ka.. mula2 dengaq sore aku keh keh keh.. ada ke dia cakap sora aku cam makcik... (fazilah, adik c'dah) dia dok cakap, 'makcik ni... kan' ahehehe.. isk isk isk.. lama tak jumpe depaaaaaaa....... aku cakap, 'bukan.. bukan' dengan nada ceria nya... abg long jawab 'ye.. yee.. ye..' ahaks.. saba je... abg long..abg long... :D last2 aku cakap.. ni mak long ct le...baru dia senyap.. pehtu dia kata 'oooooooo' sesembang jab, aku cakap 'suh mak chak beli baju kedah ka..?' pehtu dia jawab ' aik, mak chak cakap ka' hehehe.. pandai pulak tu... 'aku cakap ye la' dia kata ' ye la.. anak kedah' amboiiiiii... pandai nyeee... ehehhehe... tetiba nak tengok jam.. ayaaakkK!! lagi 15min nak masuk opis... aku cakap kat abg long yg aku nak pi keje.. pehtu offline lor... aper lagi... peh zohor...(macam kilat tak ingat punya... ape la siti...) makan obat... pehtu pi opis...dalam kol dua lebih... tetiba je aku rasa weng..weng.. weng.. *@%@*(*^@^%^%~~ nampak bintang.. rasa nak tido atas meja... warggHhhH ngantuk nye....!!!!!! aku tido, nongkat tangan kat dahi..sambil tangan tutup mata (COVER.. kuhnun buat keje la tu...) ahhaha.. tetiba je bila buka mata... en. murshid ada depan mata... tekejut beruk aku!! pakcik ni nak ape lagiiii.... aerggg!!!! aisey...ape la.. sib baik tadak ayaq liur basi ka.. ayaq liuq fresh ka.. dok leleh... ehehhehehe.. kalau tak kantoi la.. dia suh oter sket dwg.. esh ampeh.. potongggggggg jeeeeeeee jalan...... eeeeee.... (b, ko senyummm ekkk.... tak pe.. tak pe...)
lepas balik keje.. pi tepeng ngan eeda.. pi amik power supply kat CSI... aiyak... pehtu beli nasi ayam kat kedai nama 'kemunting timur..' pehtu balik, eeda ajak singgah umah then, makan nasik ayam, pas maghrib bertolak balik.. aduhai.. teringat mimi.. memanggil-manggil... sian mimi lapar... ahahhaa... selsema pon selera makan tuuu... tak ingat punye.... isk isk isk...
EN. DIN
encik din, makin mengarut la.. ada ke minta buku rumah tangga kat aku.. mana la aku nak ada.. silap orang pe... dah tu.. suh org sengap-sengap...!! mmg sah la dia khawen tu.. tanak heboh pasai pa tah.. esk esk eks pelik la en. din ni... pelik.. pelik.. ni mesti da pa pa nie.. jeng.. jeng.. jeng..
uhuks... ni nak gelak.. En. Anizam.. suh Jamilah tulis surat kat Jabatan Kesihatan.. suh buat pemeriksaan kat sini.. takot ada jangkitan... selsema burung... waakakkakakaka... ada ke.. tapi tak dinafikan.. mmg ramai sakit kat ofis ni.. my GOD... berjangkit2.. berlawan batuk lak.. rasa nye ni musim ni.. tak pe la... dugaan ALLAH.. dugaan.. dugaan.. so, sok pi keje.. sure banyak keje.. aerghhhh... saba..saba.. so need rest yg banyaaaaakkk ari ni...
Minum air banyakkk... tu le nasihat doc raha.. aerh... dah banyak dah minum.. tak larat nak pi toilet dah.. esj esj esj... sabaq je.. tadi gi clinic.. milah, kak intan & adli mai, depa tlg hanta kan pi clinic.. skang dah kebah dah... peluh dah kuar ni.. hummm... hopefullyy ill be fine sok...
The one n only... aiyer... ahaks.. muahss... geramm...
Phew.... tadi ada meeting untuk sambutan esok hari, buat ala kadar je.. selalu buat besar2an.... tak sempat kot.. memasing banyak keje.. (NASIB BAIK...hhehee.. selalu yang nak jadik AJK, muka2 kamiii jugak... dah tadak org lain... itu pasal la aku rasa benasib baik.. keh keh keh.. kalau tak... banyak keje nak kena buat... lecehh.. leceh keh keh keh...) so, thn ni buat kecil2an... Sok list jemputan hanya JKR LMS & UPPJ je... pehtu pejabat kawasan yang lain... menu... besa je... ada lemang, ketupat, satey, nasik goreng, kueh mueh, laksa dan lain2.. aku pon lupa la.. huhuhu... nanti aku amik gamba ek... nak letak lam ni.. keh keh keh.. insya allahhh.....
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ahaks.. nak minta maaf... lupe nak cakap.. tadaq camera... anip dah amik camera... ampeh anip...
ahaks, my new friends... wahahhaha.. keta uncle terlanggar tiang.. esk esk esk.. tu la, tanampak... ni sure mamai pepagi ni.. ape laaaa... cindy...cindy... mana aaa si eeda tanampak ni...
erkkkkkkk.... mas.. mas.... giler weng.. weng jab.. apa la nasib.. hai dah nasib badan kan.. esk esk esk.. terkejut memula tu.. tapi, tader rasa apa pun lepas tu.. cuma bersalah la.. kawan ngan suami orang pulak... MAS penipuu!! eeee! Mas dah jadik suami org!! Dah 10 tahun khawin!! dah ada anak, 2 pasang lagi.. comel.. cute.. besa la budak2... alahai... isteri dia pon menten.. ayu.. hesh hesh.. apa lagik yang Mas carik.. entah la.. laki memang macam tu ke.. tak pernah puas, bersyukur apa yang ada.. (ulps... ahaks...) sabar lah hati... uhuks.. uhuks.. adoiiii.............auchhhhhhhhhh!! pedih..
aku pun pelik macam mana dia nak berterus terang... apa pon dia cakap rasa bersalah n tanak teruskan dosa... hummmmmmmm... nasib baik SEDAR... esk esk esk..
macam macam nak cite..tapi skang ni kat ofis.. ayak.. tak sempat.. nak menaip, akhir2 ni banyak keje..
aku bersyukur...
"Terima Kasih Kepada Orang Yang Melukakan Hati Anda, Kerana Mereka Telah Kuatkan Semangat Anda....
Terima Kasih Kepada Orang Yang Memarahi Anda, Kerana Mereka Telah Ingatkan Anda Tentang Kelemahan Diri Anda....
Terima Kasih Kepada Orang Yang Halang Anda, Kerana Mereka Telah Kuatkan Langkah Anda....
Terima Kasih Kepada Mereka Yang Menipu Anda, Kerana Mereka Telah Jadikan Hidup Anda Warna-Warni...."
aerggggggggggghhhhhhhh PERLIS MENANG!!!!!!!! 1-0
sepanjang perjalanan ke KL... pehhhhhh.. semer keta, van & bas ada bendera babe!! dahsyat.......
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Semalam kak dura buat open house & majlis cukur jambul... isk isk isk.. sedappppppppppppppppp.. mak kak dura buat laksa penang & nasik tomato... masya allah... giler sedap!!
pagi tu, sarapan nasik beriani kak suzi.. hari ahad lepas kak suzi buat open house.. tak sempat nak pi.. masa tu baru sampai dari KL... n demam la plak.. pehtu hujan lebat la plak.. jadi, tak pi la.. kak suzi bawak ke office soknye... nyumiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! cedap gilak!! the whole day makan sedap... adus.. perot penuh.. hehehe... aerghhhh!!
Ke mana saja kau berlari bsembunyi
Ku tahu cintamu padaku teguh
Ku tak peduli cara dan tingkah lakumu
Kerna ku takkan pergi
Jauh dari sisimu
Dengarlah kasih
Kan ku serahkan segala kepadamumu
Kan ku serahkan segala kepadamu
Kan ku serahkan segala padamu
Kan ku serahkan segala kepadamu
Kan ku bina sebuah singgahsana
Untukmu berlindung dari hujan basah
Pabila malam ku termimpikan wajahmu
Takkan jiwa ragaku berakhir nikmatnya
Astagfirullahhhhhhalazim... dak mimi nie la... sabar je.. tatau la dia pi merantau mana.. dah 4 hari 4 malam tak balik.. risauuuuu sangat.. (alamak!!..tak sempat nak tulis lam ni...) hari ahad masa balik dari KL... tengok2 dia balik.. selamber je masuk lam umah.. tak bunyi lak tu.. tekejut aku.. ingat kucing mana la meleset2 kat kaki... fuh.. syukurrr... alhamdulillah... dimakbulkan.. dia pon nampak sihat je.. ingat minggu ni nak bawak kampung.. sian dia, teringin nak naik keta tu.. saba je lah...
aku lak.. balik2 KL je.. mmg sah.. demam... ya allah.. sakit tekak.. adoi.. tak larat.. nak jumpe farah, abg zali(nak amik buku), tini & epi.. tak kesampaian.. sorry banyak2, skang kat ofis, dok tahan nie.. aiyerks.. boleh menten lagi.. kawal pikiran.. kawal..kawal.. semer kat opis ni dah kena jangkitan.. sape nye virus tatau le.. samer jangkit.. sorang2 tumbang.. hummm...
Kak Linda dapat baby boy... a prince at last.. (2.12.04/19 Syawal 1425H) pukul 6.06am, 3.66kg...Wah, Aiman... Che' Lemannn u've got baby brother lah... muaaaaaahksssss....
Nak pi tengok la nanti... maybe on new year eve's kot.. insya allahh..
Tis is Wan Mohammad Aqil....
Redup matamu
Memandang wajahku
Jangan menangis
Memang benar dulu
Kunci hatiku
Ada padamu
Ohh..
Aku kembali
Dimatamu kini
Bukan kerana kamu
Bukan niatku
Melara hatimu
Usah khuatir
Jika hadirku melukai hati
Maaf ku pohon abadi
Kini dihatiku satu puteri
Yang pasti bukannya kamu
Korus:
Ampunkan aku
Seandainya engkau menangis lagi
Ampunkan aku
Memang aku bukan lelaki dulu
Ampunkan aku
Seandainya engkau masih merindu
Ampunkan aku
Mendung ini pasti akan berlalu
Redup matamu
Memandang wajahku
Jangan menangis
Kita lewati
Saat Kau dan Aku
Leka menari
Ampunkan aku
Seandainya engkau
Menangis lagi
Ampunkan aku
Memang aku bukan lelaki dulu
Ampunkan aku
Seandainya engkau masih merindu
Ampunkan aku
Mendung ini pasti akan berlalu
Samseng, samseng, samseng, samseng
ini bukan zaman samseng
bukan zaman samseng samseng*
tiada tempat untuk samseng
ini bukan cara samseng
Sudah banyak yang ku lihat di depan mata
pecah botol pecah gelas pecah kaca pecah kepala
cara berkuasa siapa gagah siapa perkasa siapa lagi ramai anggota
mana tempat?
bila masa?
kita jumpa
satu lawan satu
engkau dengan aku
buka butang buka baju
gedebak gedebik gedebuk
kita tunggu siapa yang akan jatuh dahulu
Yang menang akan jadi abang besar
tak perlu gusar
kiri kanan sentiasa ada orang jaga
bila berjalan kepak mula dibuka
jaga jaga jangan cuba merenung mata
amaran untuk semua
dunia ini dia yang punya
Samseng, samseng, samseng, samseng
ini bukan zaman samseng
bukan zaman samseng samseng*
tiada tempat untuk samseng
ini bukan cara samseng
Dan didepan mu berbaris peluang-peluang
tapi tidak mahu pun engkau rebutkan
Berderet-deret sasaran
namun tidak satu peluru pun engkau lepaskan
kerana engkau hanya asyik berjuang
Entah untuk apa dan demi siapa engkau juangkan
Keberanianmu itu adalah
himpunan puluhan anggota bengong
yang sibuk melaungkan suku-suku pantun
serta cogankata kosong
Keberanianmu itu adalah
tubuh-tubuh kaku terdalam* bergelimpangan
di simpang-simpang jalan yang telah engkau tewaskan
Keberanianmu itu adalah wajah-wajah kamu
yang berbinkan dan berbintikan
si anu dan si polan
terpampang di muka suratdepan
ruang2 surat* dipasung kaki dan tangan
Keberanianmu itu adalah anak2 bangsaku
dalam satu ikatan berkongsi kandang
bergelar si banduan
Apa yang kan kau dapat
hanya sorakan kuat
naikkan semangat
setelah bertempur hebat
engkaulah tuah engkaulah jebat
tiada siapa yang akan berani dekat
sampai bila kau nak jadi raja membabi buta
bukalah mata satu hari kau pasti akan jatuh takhta
kehabisan bisa baru kau sedar
mana pergi tuah
mana hilang jebat
mana kata semangat
mana kiri kanan gua
mana kata bersatu
mana isi dan kuku
mana sehidup semati
mana pergi
argh!! semua janji
Bukan aku hendak mengata
tapi sudah nyata
semakin bermaharajalela
semakin berleluasa
satu demi satu
bangsa ku menjadi layu
gugur di medang perang
ciptaan saudara saudara ku
bagaimana hendakku jelaskan
pada generasi baru
dunia maju tapi bukan kita nombor satu
dunia serba canggih tapi kita masih menagih
dunia pesat membangun tapi kita masih mengelamun
salah siapa
lain makan nangka
lain kena getah
lain cari cerita
lain jadi mangsa
kerana nila setitik
rosak semua susu sebelanga
Samseng, samseng, samseng, samseng
ini bukan zaman samseng
bukan zaman samseng samseng*
tiada tempat untuk samseng
ini bukan cara samseng
Daly=Ahlifiqir, Samsol=Tukangkata, Dayati=Mawar Berduri, Ceza=Dj Cza
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ahak.. suka lagu ni.. ngan lagu ampunkan aku... cewah...
Seorang teman akan...
Menguatkanmu dengan doanya,
Menghargaimu dengan cintanya,
Memberi semangat dengan harapannya...
peace.. luv & respect
Keh keh keh.. aku dah usik encik din, ada ke dia cakap 'gosip' esk esk esk, teruk betul.. asal lak tanak cakap dia dah khawen?? pelik.. ahh.. abaikan...
encik we.. (wan azizul azam) cewah.. kami pangey dia che' we.. orang klante tu.. pekerja import.. huhuhu.. tak cukup org da, maksud aku..tak cukup staff lam dept. ni.. tu aarr import.. ingat dah habis dah keje.. kot, la tak mai dah.. upernye ada lagik!! amsuk je..sengihhh.. asyik sengihhh jerk.. esk esk esk.. dah tu..sesuka je masuk keje tadi.. ahaks.. buat lawak ape tah.. aper la.. aku pesan serunding pun boleh lupe.. hampess....
tadi mr.pillai pangey aku.. dia tanya,aku banyak cuti lagi ke.. aku gelak, aku ingat dia nak fwd, kasik cuti dia kat aku.. keh keh keh... berangan le.. dia saja tanya.. dia cakap.. aku takleh cuti.. sampai 15hb.!!!! aiyoooo!!! 15hb Dis ke?? ke 15hb Jan... ulps.. ulps.. kena standby... aiyer.. yeH, banyak keje recently.. ni tak syiok nie... alerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... baru je tingat nak pi new year kat KL.. uhuk..uhuk.... hummm.. KEJE... KEJE... KEJEEEEE!!!
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