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dan jendela pun berbisik...
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Ya! Islamlah aku…
sajak ni aku tulis tahun lepas. aku tiba2 teringatkan sajak ni disebabkan peristiwa lewat malam tadi. nantilah aku sambung cerita...
ahad maghin aku diy dgn zal pergi tengok dejavu. rindu nak tengok lakonan Ogy. ini first time aku tengok dejavu, yg original lakonan erma aku tak tengok. tapi memang betul kata one reporter tu, maybe it's a blessing in disguise.
sbb aku rasa ogy berjaya hidupkan watak sunarti tu dan her antics on stage berjaya buat aku ketawa, menangis dan terkedu serentak. skrip teater ni memang power. aku tak heran bila diy tepon kata kawan dia nak tengok mlm tadi full house tak dpt masuk langsung dlm matic tu. nasib baik aku pergi hari first. dejavu kira teater pertama aku utk thn ni. 
masa Ogy nyanyi lagu Bengawan Solo tu memang sedih diy... tapi aku tak boleh tahan nak ketawa sbb teringat cikgu gitar zal marah dia sbb main lagu bengawan solo tu tak betul. cikgu zal cakap ni bengawan solo ke bangla solo. itu yg aku tak tahan tu. tapi melody dia memang berhantu kan?
malam ni malam last dejavu. sapa yg tak tengok lagi tu pergilah tengok. boleh buat kita terfikir, adakah kita memandang hina pada pendatang? dulu kat itm ada satu abg tukang cuci tu dr indonesia tapi dia ada sarjana ekonomi....
aku bukak lagu raya kat opis. dia org semua cakap aku poyo. a'ah memanglah aku poyo kalau bab2 raya ni lagi kalau raya yg paling suci dlm islam ni raya aidiladha. aku bengang sebabnya macam takde suasana nak raya pun kat kl ni. kat tv takde, kat radio takde. sumer org macam rileks jer tak macam raya puasa.
wei, ni raya korbanlah wei, tiga hari takbir, korang tak terasa apa2 ker. aku ni bukan baik sgtlah tapi aku macam sedih sbb macam takde pengertian pulak hari raya aildiladha ni. macam dianggap cuti2 biasa pulak dek sesetengah org.
aku sebenarnya bengang sbb plan aku nak tengok urbanscapes tak menjadik. apa taknya, event tu buat masa hari mantai, 31 jan pukul 3pm sampai malam. tak boleh tukar ker. takkan org tgh sibuk bertakbir aku terkinja2 tgh tengok oag ker butterfingers nyanyi. aku nak sangat tengok nam ron dgn amir muhammad punya cerita tapi aku tak boleh. aku cintakan seni sgt2 tapi aku lebih cintakan tuhan aku. ni kira pengorbanan jugak ke hah????
I am not a fan of Benfica. The only Benfica player I know is Nuno Gomes and that is because he used to play with Fiorentina in the Serie A and also the Portugal's national team.
I never knew Miklos Feher until I saw him collapsed in the news footage last night. Millions of people/fans probably saw the same footage played over and over again on tv. He was a 24-year-old Hungarian, very young and handsome. He’s obviously loved by his teammates, he's someone's son, someone's brother, someone's boyfriend, somebody's darling, so to speak.
He died of a cardiac arrest. He’s an athlete for God's sake. It’s just so heartbreaking to see someone dying right in front of you even though he was a stranger. What have become of the world of football? His death wasn't even unique because six months ago Marc Vivien Foe, a Cameroon international died during the Confederations Cup match because of a heart attack also.
Playing for full 90 minutes isn't an easy task even though the players make it look as if it's nothing. They have to be fit all the time to make it into the first eleven.
What is it then? Is it the food, the lifestyles or the illegal substances or perhaps it is simply fate. Feher's untimely death had shocked football fans all over the world and there's bound to be questions demanded to be answered.
Players like Zidane and Del Piero (to name a few) were pumped with illegal substance like creatine just so they could keep up with playing 70 games.
What will become of the Milan players who have to play for the Scudetto, for the Italian super cup, for champions league, for international friendlies and for Euro 2004? How do they cope with all that?
I don't know why I was so sad, there was pain in my heart and I couldn't get rid of the image of Feher collapsing on the field. One minute he was smiling at the referee and the next thing we knew, he just drop dead. How precious life is I know. Maybe he wanted to die that way, while playing the game he loved liked so many war photojournalists who wished they died during the action. Don’t mind me, I just want to find solace through nonsense rambling to get rid of this pain in my heart. Arriverdeci...Miklos Feher.
thursday-22/1 - tini kawin hari ni. aku macam tak caya jer. tini coursemate ngan housemate aku masa study dulu. aku dgn zal pegi ipoh semata2 nak tengok tini kawin. hehehe...diy tak pegi sbb keja. jalan sikit punya jam. dekat dua jam stgh baru sampai rumah dia. patutnya sejam stgh je. aku pegi penang pun baru 3 jam. ngantuk giler, dahlah panas terik.
dulu bapak tini kerja dgn ktm sblm bersara, jadi dia duduk kat banglo ktm kat jln travers tu. bila dah pencen barulah bapak dia balik ipoh. aku, diy dgn salwa panggil tini kak normah sbb kita org pernah menyewa bilik kat rumah dia masa buat praktikal. rumah dia best giler sbb stail banglo lama zaman kolonial dulu dan betul2 kat tepi jln travers tu. kalau lalu memang boleh nampak punyalah.
rumah dia ada satu bilik org gaji kat belakang. nak masuk pun ikut tangga lain. bilik tulah yg kita org sewa (tak bayar sewa pun sebenarnya), bayar duit api jer. kalau nak mandi kena pergi bilik air sebelum subuh sbb nanti kalau dah pagi sgt byk kereta lalu lalang, malulah. kalau pergi mesti bertiga, lepas tu mencangkung tunggu giliran, sebijik macam cerita p. ramlee. drpd situlah timbul nama kak normah tu. hehehe...
banyak kenangan suka duka tersimpan kat bilik org gaji di jln travers tu. salwa skrg dah jadi cikgu, diy pulak housemate aku. diy budak advert yg ended up buat keja budak publishing dan aku, aku budak journ yg ended up buat keja budak pr.
tini nampak happy sgt, yelah mestilah happy sbb itu wedding day dia lainlah kalau kawin paksa mestilah sedih. aku dtg pun kejap jer. dah lama tak jumpa bapak tini, alamak dia pegi mentioned satu peristiwa memalukan masa aku duduk rumah dia dulu kat situ-situ jugak. aduh malunya! tini gelak je. siot lu...tak nampak budak-budak lain pun, so lepas bergambar aku ngan zal pun blah. semoga berbahagia sampai bila2 tini.
alamak lagi 20km nak sampai sg buloh, minyak kereta dah kritikal. camna boleh tak perasan ni. nasib baik sempat sampai kat restoran jejantas. ni memang tempat favourite aku sbb aku suka sgt dgn soto ayam kat satu kedai tu. dan aku hanya dpt makan soto tu kalau aku pergi ke utara jelah. kalau sesaje nak gi makan kat restoran jejantas tu tak dapeklah kan. lepas tu pegi kedai runcit kat situ jumpak pulak komik sinchan. yeyeye!!!sampai rumah kat pukul lima jugaklah. fatigue giler bila dah sampai rumah tak boleh nak bukak mata...
to buttercup, after gendon had her bath, I hugged and kissed her for you. she smells good for a while at least. hehehe...
wednesday night, diy and I went to Uptown to check out new cds and to eat yong tau foo. we totally forgot that it was CNY's eve. neither the yong tau foo nor the cd's shop was opened. stupida! so we ate at this stall selling western food called Cowboy Station. diy ordered a sizzling lamb chop while yours truly had a black pepper chicken chop. diy's plate was shaped like a real cow and strangely enough i found it really funny and couldn't stop laughing which irritated diy to no end.
sorry mate! I don't know why but it was just so funny to watch you ate from a cow-shaped plate. lucky mine wasn't shaped like a chicken. (still gigling).
we used to like hanging out at a place like uptown for hours watching people in general and to check out cute guys (heheheh..) nowadays, we just couldnt be bothered and that's why we always leave right after having our dinner. maybe it's the age factor. :-(
it was 1.30 am and I was about to sleep when diy came running into my room and told me she heard someone played the guitar. both of us went to the living room and when we looked down from our balcony, we saw a guy playing his guitar and the melody was so beautiful, never heard of it before. he didn't know we're watching him. i felt like a voyeur though and we were enjoying the music when suddenly gendon leap into the balcony and ruined everything. poor guy, he probably thought gendon was some kind of an evil spirit. stupid cat, fortunately we managed to hide before he saw us. that's the end of our midnight serenade though.
suhair kehilangan isteri dan anaknya kerana jambatan kg yg bobrok tidak dibaiki. kedua2nya mati lemas. suhaidi abang suhair berjumpa ketua kampung dan MP utk meminta penjelasan mengapa jambatan yg dijanjikan ketika pilihanraya tiga tahun dulu masih tidak terbina sedangkan kilang yg baru terbina dibuatkan jalan raya.
kata tok ketua, peruntukan tidak ada. kata MP pula buat jambatan bukan macam buat rumah, perlu ada perancangan.
suhaidi berjumpa parti pembangkang untuk meminta bantuan membina jambatan. wakilnya menyalahkan penduduk kg sendiri kerana tidak mengundi beliau. sekarang apa sudah jadi katanya.
suhair kata dia nak bina sendiri jambatan tu sbb tak mahu ada org lain menjadi mangsa dan dia nak mintak tolong bantuan penduduk kg. kata suhaidi kan MP tu ada, apa kejadah kita nak buat sendiri pulak jambatan tu. kata suhair kalau tak jadi MP tak boleh buat ke jambatan tu.
nak harapkan MP, tidak dilayan, tok ketua pulak sentiasalah menjawab tiada peruntukkan, minta bantuan wakil pembangkang pula dimarahi kerana tidak mengundinya manakala penduduk kampung pula tidak mahu berusaha.
akhirnya suhair berjumpa kawannya seorang cina dan menggadaikan seluruh harta bendanya supaya jambatan dapat dibina. jambatan sudah terbina suhair dimarahi abang dan ketua kampung kerana memandai2. buat sesuatu tak ikut peraturan. suhair kata dia tak paham kenapa mereka semua kecoh macam tu bila niatnya hanya mahu memastikan tiada lagi nyawa yang hilang dan tidak mahu melihat penduduk kg terputus hubungan dgn dunia luar. katanya nak tunggu sampai bila? org kampung ni hanyalah penoreh getah dan miskin, jadi mereka ini tiada kepentingan kata suhair lagi buat tok ketua terdiam.
kawan cinanya buat tol di jambatan supaya hasil kutipan tol tu boleh membeli balik harta suhair yg tergadai. kata suhair, tol itu bertentangan dgn kemanusiaan. kata kawan cinanya, sepatutnya kau yg jadi MP. kata suhair kalau tak jadi MP tak boleh tolong org ke?
khalid saleh memang tak perlu diperkenalkan lagi. lakonannya dalam telefilem berjudul Jambatan cukup berkesan tanpa perlu dialog yg banyak. nampaknya respek aku pada adman salleh semakin bertambah setelah menonton telefilem hasil karya dan arahannya ni. aku memang tertarik dgn Paloh tapi isu telefilem jambatan ini dan skripnya begitu tajam dan halus menyucuk. terima kasihlah astro ria sbb siarkan telefilem ni walaupun pada pukul 11.30 malam. aku harap siapa yg makan cili biarlah terasa pedasnya.
dua minggu yang dipenuhi dengan aktiviti menonton perlawanan hoki. masa byk dihabiskan di stadium hoki. hanya dua games malaysia je yg aku miss dan kedua2nya game dengan spain.
hari jumaat malam, aku tengok game malaysia-korea. sedihnya tengok dia org main. pancit giler. takde stamina. bukanlah korea tu main terer sgt pun tapi kita macam takleh nak bangkit melawan langsung berbeza dgn masa lawan pakistan hari rabu lepas. w/pun seri tapi malaysia main cantik gila. takdelah sakit hati sangat. aku rasa mesti sbb dia org tu dah bermati2an main dgn pakistan dah tak larat nak lawan korea. tapikan mana boleh camtu.
semalam, aku gi tengok semi final korea-germany. bangga gila gak ler tengok pasukan asia kalahkan pasukan europe. aku tak kira aku sokong semua yg asia2 jer. tapi keeper korea w/p sekali tengok macam sinchan jer tapi terer gila bila dia block bola pemain2 germany.
lepas semi final aku sambung lak tengok final pakistan-australia. frust giler tengok pakistan main camtu. lebih kurang pancit macam malaysia jer. dah le penuh stadium tu dgn bahiya! bahiya! siap offer bendera pakistan kat diy. hehehe...
tapi w/p sakit hati aussie tu menang tapi aku tak nafikan dia org main bagus. very tactical dan tak bagi ruang langsung utk pakistan bernafas. kerumun pasukan lawan macam semut. defense pakistan pulak memang hancur. memang psycho giler aussie main. rapat giler dia org trail tapi body contact takde tu yg sakit hati tu. sohail punya penalty corner pun tak berapa mengancam kali ni. kesian ler tengok pakistan.
aku sakit hati sebenarnya tengok org2 kita menyokong australia dan germany beriya2 macam dia org tu lah yg hebat sgt. benci betul aku. germany yg kalah tu dia orang sorakkan dgn penuh bersemangat tapi korea yg menang tu tak pulak disorakkan ucapan tahniah. pelik aku.
dah habis hoki ni, boring ler pulak aku. sedih pun ada jugak. harap2 malaysia cubalah buat perubahan. kembalikanlah zaman kegemilangan kita dulu. takkan tak kesian kat abang saiful, abang nurazlan, mirnawan dan chairil. dia org bersara dgn harapan ada pelapis yg lebih baik tapi for the time being telan air liur jelah nak tengok malaysia menang.
1. i've never seen a flag been substitute before," said Allan Parry in the Arsenal vs Aston Villa match last night. He was commenting on the broken flag- that was a good one and very2 funny.
2. henry took an early free kick and the goal was allowed by the referee even though the villa's players weren't ready yet.
this incident reminded me of the milan's derby a few years back. it
wasn't funny at that time but it sure was now. inter got a free kick exactly at the same spot as arsenal. fans were throwing orange's peel all over the field and milan's keeper at the time was christian abbiati. he was trying to pick up the orange's peel when vieri suddenly struck.
it was a controversial goal because the players that made the wall of defense also weren't ready but the goal was allowed and milan lost the derby. it wasn't a good season for milan anyway. but abbiati lost his position to Dida ever since. pity him though!
last saturday the three of us went to MPPJ stadium to watch the charity shield between MPPJ and Negeri Sembilan. the stadium was almost fullhouse. we were sitting on the wrong side of the supporters but who cares! yea! forza negeri. however, I'm ashamed to admit that i don't know any of the negeri players compared to MPPJ.
i guess both sides had a good game even though negeri's defense was terrible. Negeri paid dearly for the mistakes and blunders made by its defenders and keeper. the midfielders were quite impressive but the forwards needed to do more. it's a sad ending for a Negeri's fans but then again, what else is new???
saturday-17/1/04 - aku pergi kelas macam biasa tapi cikgu aku tak habis mengajar lagi. cikgu zal lak tgh sibuk uruskan student2 baru. aku pun ajak zal masuk bilik drum, dylan pun ada so, kita org suruh ler dia ajar main drum.
alamak! best gilernya main drum ni. aku baru belajar basic sikit tu pun dah rasa exhilirating giler. rasa adrenalin aku naik mendadak. tu belum rolling lagi tu. rasa tak boleh nak stop main. lps tu tak sempat nak main lagi cikgu aku dah panggil lak tapi kelas dah penuh so, pinjam kelas drum tu. masa cikgu aku tgh tune gitar dia, aku pun main lah drum tu lagi. bestnya. last2 cikgu aku ambik drumstick tu dia yg main. hehehe...
kiranya cikgu aku boleh gak main drum sikit2 selain gitar. aku ingat bila aku dah betul2 terer main gitar nanti, aku nak belajar main drum pulak. at least kalau gian sgt blh gi jamming sbb takkan lah nak beli drum. mahal giler, nak jaga pun susah.
jari telunjuk aku sakit sebenarnya sbb byk main plucking utk lagu kau ilhamku ni. 100% plucking plus tapping masa chorus. takde strumming langsung. tergeliat2 jari aku.
dulu aku selalu mengata kalau nampak perempuan bela kuku panjang tapi sekarang aku pulak yg kena bela kuku panjang, at least tangan kanan jelah. kalau tak panjang camna nak petik gitar. mak aku kalau nampak mesti dia tanya ambik sembahyang macam mana. aku pulak dah sediakan bermacam2 jawapan bernas utk jawab pertanyaan mak aku. hehehe...
zal dah naik gred dua, yuran dia naik RM10 lagi. aku gelakkan dia sekali billy cakap aku punya yuran pun naik RM10 gak. eh! aku tanya dia bukan ke aku beginner sampai bila2. hehehe...
minggu depan aku takde kelas sbb raya cina. aku tanya angpow kat cikgu aku, dia kata nak angpow datang rumah. ish! leceh. aku tanya billy, limau mandarin takde ke, dia cakap nak limau dtg rumah dia tapi dia kata open house takde, open room ade. cis! sexual harassment ni.
thursday-15/1/04
aku: apa? gendon hilang? kau biar betul kak!
kakak: betul! dah dua hari dua malam dia menghilangkan diri. kita org cari satu taman tu tapi tak jumpa.
aku dah gelabah bila kakak aku tepon kata gendon dah lari dari rumah semalam. segala macam bentuk penyesalan bermain di kotak pemikiran aku. kenapa aku hantar dia balik seremban? kenapa itu dan kenapa ini.
aku tepon diy, dia pun speechless tak tau nak cakap apa. dia kata dia tak berape setuju sebenarnya kita org hantar gendon balik kg tapi dia takdelah nak cakap.
aku tepon zal, masa ni aku dah tak tahan dah, air mata dah mengalir. zal dah berdebar-debar dah. dia tanya kenapa dgn gendon? aku pun cakap gendon dah hilang. nak buat camna ni zal.
last2 kita org plan nak balik seremban petang tu jugak pegi cari gendon. aku pun cakap kat kakak kat opis nak balik pukul 5 sbb nak gi carik gendon. dia org gelak jer tapi dia org okay.
sampai seremban dlm pukul 6 lebih, aku parked kereta kat rumah aku lps tu kita org jalan kaki ke rumah kakak aku. rumah dia tak jauh dari rumah aku selang 4-5 lorong jer. sampai kat tmn perumahan tu aku tengok budak2 tgh main kat padang permainan ah! sudah! camna nak carik gendon ni. kalau org ramai2 camni dia mesti panik. entah lari ke mana le agaknya dia ni.
aku ngan zal masing2 penat tapi cari jugak ikut instinct. kita org jln kat lorong pertama sblm rumah kakak aku. sambil lalu tu tinjau2 rumah org kiri kanan. org kat situ pun heran apsal ler dua org perempuan ni terjenguk2.
sambil mencari tu aku ngan zal borak pasal gendon. kita org cuba bayangkan hidup tanpa dia. ish! tak boleh bayangkan. gendon suka menyorok dalam bilik air, so kalau kita lalu depan bilik air tu dia mesti lompat keluar, konon2 nak sergahlah. selalu kita org buat2 terperanjat. nanti dia suka, dia masuk balik dlm bilik air dan tunggu mangsa seterusnya. gendon memang kelakar.
aku cakap kat zal kita takde pun ambik gambar gendon langsung. kalau dia hilang terus, takde gambar kenangan pun. alamak sedihnya. kalau aku praktis gitar, dia suka tidur kat atas beg gitar aku. kalau zal buat thesis, dia suka pijak laptop zal. hehehe...kalau diy tengok tv, dia suka gigit kaki diy. (itulah kau diy, suka marah gendon tak bagi masuk bilik kau).
tengah cari2 tu sekali zal ternampak gendon kat dalam rumah berpagar hitam tengah bermain cinta dengan dua ekor kucing jantan yg hensem. wei Gendon! kita org menjerit dan terlompat2 macam org gila kat situ. kita org panggil gendon! gendon! bila dia toleh kat kita org alamak muka dia macam boring jer seolah2 macam cakap "ek eleh! tuan aku ke? kacau daun betul!"
siot lu gendon kita org dtg dari kl ni semata2 nak cari lu tau tak. lu pulak buat muka selamba jer. zal selamba jer bukak pintu pagar rumah org tu dan masuk ambik gendon. sorry ler gendon we had to cut short your rendezvous. aku pun dukung ler dia bawak balik rumah aku. kakak aku pun dtg dan suruh aku tinggal jer gendon kat dia nanti dia jaga betul2. eh! tak boleh kak! you had your chanced and you blew it. so, kakak aku said her goodbye to gendon. aku tahu dia sayang kat gendon tapi dia sekarang dah jadi kucing kita org. aku pun cium mak aku dan kita org balik ke kl.
gendon dah ler kurus sgt lepas tu selekeh pulaknya. aku rasa weekend ni nak mandikan dia. tak pernah kita org tengok dia sekotor tu. selama ni kalau bersihkan bulu dia tu berjam2 tapi apa dah jadi sekarang ni.
peristiwa ni really gave us a good scare. lps ni kita org takkan lepaskan gendon sesaje jer. gendon! oh gendon! parut cakaran kau kat muka aku ni pun tak hilang lagi dah tambah lagi satu drama pulak dalam hidup kita org ni. gila!
lepas letak gendon kat rumah, lepak sekejap. lps tu pegi kota damansara, zal nak hantar album kawan dia. nampak apartment zal dah siap. wuyoo! zal dah ada rumah sendiri. aku bila lagi yek! tak nak, aku nak pegi Italy dulu tapi tabung Road To Italy aku tu bila nak cukup? :-( singgah uptown beli yong tau foo. umm! sedapnya.
dari uptown kita org pergi kampung baru basuh kereta aku. lepak kat kedai makan tu sambil tunggu kereta siap dibasuh. sampai rumah pukul 12 lebih. aduh penatnya. gendon dah siap tunggu kat bilik nak tidur bersama2. hehehe...
tuesday-13/1/04
i just got back from work and Gendon looked like she was dying of a broken heart. she just stood looking at the door and howled and howled and howled.
she looked so sad! it got to me man! zal, what should we do? zal said her officemate who lived in Gombak got a cat but it got a flu. then, how? the only solution that i could think of was to call my sister in seremban. and so, the mission's begun.
me: seremban1! seremban1! over
sis: pantai2! pantai2! apo hal? over
me: kak! kucing lu gila seks. gua dah tak tahan lagi! over
sis: apo dah takdo kucing jantan ko kek KL tu. over
me: ado tapi dio tak nak kek gendon sobab dio gemok sgt. over
sis: abih tu bawak le dio balik sini boleh kawinkan dgn si gemok. over
me: ok! kak kojap lagi den sampai ghumah lu. over and out!
zal, gendon and I went back to seremban that night at about 8pm so that gendon could have her "rendezvous". zal drove like crazy, it was like 130km p/h. sort of like an ambulance carrying a lovesick patient. the only thing missing was the siren.
gendon loves to ride in a car though and her favourite thing was putting her face in front of the aircond. hehehe...crazy cat.
gendon was originally my sister's cat. gendon and gemok are siblings. both mix-bred with long hair but compared to gendon, gemok was much fatter and huge (sometimes, he did looked like garfield. hehehe...). so, we plan to get them together, err...it's not incest right?
the fat male wasn't home when we arrived. it saddened me to leave gendon there even though it's her birthplace but who are we to go against nature right! besides, it's time for her to explore her own sexuality. hehehe...
arriverdeci gendon! take care of yourself and enjoy your honey moon. till we meet again. te amo la mia gatta.
we returned to kl at 10.30pm with heavy heart and already we had all missed her. :-(
it's full moon and our cat was acting like crazy. we couldn't stomach the non-stop mating call any longer. it drives us crazy. hey stop it girl! get a life! err...what kind of life does a cat has? i'm tempted to put on a cctv at our apartment and watch what she does all day when nobody's around.
last night after we came back from the hockey stadium, we saw a male siamese cat lepaking at our floor which is the 12th floor, mind you. we'd never seen him before. maybe he came looking for our Gendon. finally her mating call was answered. thank God! so we let Gendon out to meet her husband-to-be.
it was like watching hindi movies where the heroine rolling here and there and all over the place. that was exactly what Gendon did, the shameless feline. hey Gendon! control yourself woman. have a little pride for God's sake!.
the drama continued on but there's something wrong here, the male didn't look interested. Gendon had given her best come-hither look and the male wasn't turned on at all. what give?
hey you! where did u come from? are you an eunuch or what? this was like the most beautiful feline on earth, a voluptous mix-bred with huge tawny eyes and sexy tail. what are you, blind? we decided to check the cat's behind again and it was definitely not an eunuch because everything was still intact.
hey you ugly, cross-eyed siamese. you don't know what's good for you and you've just made the biggest blunder in your life. how could you reject such a well-trained and a very smart female. get your ugly ass the hell out of here, you bloody bugger! come on Gendon! forget him, he's not worth your time. there are other fish in the ocean.
Gendon didn't want to leave her new beau, she was howling like mad and we ran like hell into our apartment taking her with us. and so, the mating call continues...
tonight, we are going to do some kind of a mission impossible. we are going to find Gendon her soulmate if not for her sakes, at least for the return of our sanity. wish us luck!
sabtu-10/1/04
aku gi kelas cam biasa. lagu minggu lepas ingatkan dah betul dah main tapi bila cikgu tukar jadi double lead dan double bass, aku dah pening. camna ni. 1/2 jam tu habiskan praktis jer.
dah nak habis kelas, cikgu ajar lagu baru Kau Ilhamku. Ya Allah! tension nye aku. cikgu kata relax tapi aku dah nak menangis belajar lagu ni. benci lah nak plucking tali satu dgn tali dua serentak. cikgu kata itulah skill namanya. sbb tu pergi kelas kalau tak baik beli buku belajar sendiri kat rumah. eleh! aku belasah cikgu aku ni kang.
lps kelas tumpang zal balik seremban. yea! takyah drive bestnye. nasib baik housemate sama kampung. hehehe...
sampai rumah tengok anak buah aku si Sarah tgh terbaring kat atas sofa. apa hal lu aku tanya? rupanya dia jatuh motor. habis lutut dgn tapak tangan dia. rupanya dia curi-curi bawak motor abg aku (pakcik dia) pegi pasar. kakak aku kata, itulah curi lagi motor.
aku lak gelak jelah tak boleh nak komen apa sbb aku pun ada sejarah sendiri dgn motor. tengok anak buah aku tu mengingatkan aku pada peristiwa 16 thn dulu.
aku pernah bawak motor arwah bapak aku tanpa pengetahuan dia masa aku form 2 dulu. bapak aku tak bagi bawak motor, aku degil jugak nak belajar. jiran aku ler yg ajarkan secara sembunyi2.
satu hari tu aku curi motor bapak aku dan bawak jiran aku tu jln keliling kg. dah le tak pakai helmet. sekali kat simpang empat aku nak tekan brek tertekan minyak, apa lagi motor tu terus ke depan dan terlanggar teksi. nak jadi cerita kawan abang pulak nampak peristiwa tu. apalagi dia pun cakap dgn abang2 aku, "wei, adik kau jadi superman sekejap". aku memang dendam dgn mamat tu.
terpaksalah arwah bapak aku bayar pemandu teksi tu. aku apa lagi kena rotan. dah ler luka kat siku, badan sakit semua. padanlah muka aku. sampai sekarang ada lagi parut tu. sethn aku tak usik motor dan bertahun2 juga aku kena perli dgn abang2 aku. "eh! tak nak naik motor ke? naiklah! naiklah!naiklah!", kata abang2 aku dgn nada sarkastik. cis!!!!
last friday lepas maghrib, aku tiga sekawan pergi tengok hoki kat bukit jalil. stadium hoki kat parking A, kita org parking kat C. so sesat ler. mencari2 stadium je dah dekat 1/2 jam. hujan renyai2. masa cari stadium siap lumba2 lari lagi. giler, umur dah nak masuk 30thn, nasib baik takde org kat situ.
jumpa stadium, nak pikir kat mana lak nak beli tiket. tapi masa lalu tu pagar terbukak, so kita org masuk ler. tengok polis2 tu semua tgh tengok hoki, apa lagi kita org masuk jelah selamba tak bayar tiket. masuk je malaysia tgh leading 2-1 but it was downhill from there. last2 kita kalah 4-2. itu yg kita org malas nak tengok tu. kalau tengok tak pernah menang punyelah.
rasa2nya kita org kalau gi tengok apa2 game pun, malaysia tak pernah menang. aku rasa kita org ada bawak badi ler kat game tu.
lps game tiba2 terasa nak pergi tengok highland tower pulak. tapi perut lapar dan tiga2 terasa nak makan nasi goreng kerabu kakak kat rumah kita org tu. sodap giler nasi dia. nasib baik ada pantai expressway yg separa siap tu, cepat gak ler sampai rumah dr stadium tu.
lps makan kita org sambung balik plan nak cari highland tower tu. sebenarnya dah lama nak gi carik tapi tak terpegi2. ada sekali tu dah sampai kat flyover tinggal nak belok je tapi aku plak sakit perut tak jadi pergi. kali ni semua bersemangat nak pergi apatah lagi ditambah dgn trailer edisi siasat tu.
diy kata dia tau, kita org pun konfiden le ikut cakap dia, dekat sejam lebih asyik2 pusing kat bukit antarabangsa tu. apa lu ni, diy kata tau. last2 dah pukul 1 lebih, balik rumah terus. rupa2nya kena masuk AU. aisey, lain kali ler pergi.
sebenarnya, hobi kita org memang suka nak explore rumah2 hantu w/pun tiga2 penakut nak mampos. hari tu kita org cari rumah hantu kat bangsar tu pun tak jumpak2. bukan nak masuk pun nak tengok jer dr luar. selain drpd cari rumah hantu kita org suka tengok design2 rumah org kaya. aktiviti masa study kat itm yg berterusan sampai sekarang. hehehe...
malam ni aku dgn zal nak pergi tengok hoki kat bukit jalil.
diy tak dpt ikut sbb dia kena edit journal kat opis dia. hehehe...
marilah beramai-ramai sokong pasukan hoki kita!!!!!
malaysia vs germany
kawan aku danny seorang pembaiki kamera. bila aku cakap kat dia kamera aku rosak, dia kata buang je kat sungai (mamat ni tidak cintakan alam sekitar rupanya) sbb buang duit jer dan lbh baik beli baru. beli kamera digital katanya dgn pelat-pelat cinanya itu.
aah! dia tak tahu sejarah kamera tu. aku sayangkan kedua-dua kamera tu. dua model SLR yg berbeza:-
1- Canon Eos Elan
2. Minolta Xi7
dah 10 thn kedua-dua kamera tu menjadi teman hidup aku. kemana-mana aku bawa w/p berat macam nak mati. kenapa aku sayang gila kat kamera2 tu sampai sanggup hantar kat kedai utk service atau pun baiki kalau rosak, inilah aku nak cerita.
10 thn dulu, thn '94, aku dah bersedia nak masuk itm, aku nak ambik masscomm. tengok course tu ada subjek photocomm dan perlukan sebuah kamera. w/p aku hanya akan start awal thn '95 aku dah bersemangat sekali. aku pun tulis surat kat abang aku kat US. aku mintak dia belikan aku kamera sbb dia dah nak habis belajar masa tu.
tak berapa lama lepas tu aku dapat balasan surat daripada abang aku, pedih betul bunyi suratnya tu. aku sedih sbb dia kata aku ni suka berlagak macam org kaya. dia kata aku tahu tak berapa mahal harga kamera. dia kata aku tahu tak macam mana susahnya dia kat sana kerja siang malam sbb tak cukup duit dan tak mahu susahkan keluarga., dia kata aku manja sgt, semua benda pun harap kat org lain dia kata aku tak boleh terima kenyataan yg keluarga kami miskin. sampai hati abang aku cakap macam tu.. aku menangis siang malam bila teringatkan isi surat tu. aku merajuk sgt dgn abg aku masa tu. kalau tak nak belikan sudahlah, kenapa nak tuduh aku yg bukan-bukan.
aku selalu tanya diri aku, betul ke apa yang abang aku cakapkan tu? entahlah! mungkin dia nampak apa yang aku tak nampak. wallahualam...
penghujung thn '94, abg aku habis belajar dan dia balik ke malaysia. kita org semua pergi sambut kat airport. malam tu kita org semua berkumpul utk mendengar cerita suka duka abang aku sepanjang empat thn kat US. aku duduk agak jauh sikit drpd family yg lain sbb luka hati aku masih basah lagi kata org. abg aku beli cenderamata utk semua adik beradik dan anak buah serta ipar duai. cenderamata utk aku dia keluarkan last sekali, dua buah kamera SLR. dia pandang aku, aku pandang dia. meleleh air mata aku. adik beradik yg lain tak tau apa2 heran tengok aku. gembeng tak pasal2.
aku dapat A+ utk subjek photocomm I dan photocomm II masa kat itm. kamera tulah digunakan utk semua acara kat rumah aku. gambar raya, gambar kahwin, gambar sesaje, semuanya pakai kamera tu. 10 thn aku pakai kamera-kamera tu. bila salah satu kamera tu rosak, mula lah aku tak lelap tidur.
dalam zaman org pakai kamera digi ni, aku masih setia dgn kamera SLR aku ni. biarlah org kata aku ketinggalan zaman. dia org mungkin tak tahu kamera2 tu terhasil daripada pengorbanan seorang abang. aku rasa aku tahu dari mana dia dpt duit utk beli kamera tu sbb dlm album dia kat sana, mostly gambar dia tour US dgn motor kesayangan dia dan dia pulang ke malaysia tanpa motor itu...aku masih simpan lagi surat tu sampai sekarang.
thn lepas aku, diy ngan zal pegi daftar ngan Mercy Malaysia. masa tu semangat kita org berkobar-kobar nak buat sesuatu yg berguna dlm hidup kita org. nak berbakti pada masyarakat kat dalam dan luar negara kononnya. masa tu terpikir apa purpose kita org hidup kat dalam dunia ni.
bersemangat kita org pegi dengar talk kat hospital ampang puteri tu. kita org duduk dan dengar pengalaman budak2 muda kita yg ada sampai ke afghanistan pergi berbakti.
tapi sekarang dah hampir nak setahun since kita org daftar, satu amal jariah anjuran Mercy pun kita org tak pernah terlibat lagi. newsletter yg seringkali terpampang dalam inbox dibaca tetapi tiada tindakan susulan.
ahad lepas, mercy adakan talk tentang misi menyelamat kat Bam dan apa yg perlu dilakukan jika mahu membantu atau menderma kepada penduduk2 di sana. aku dgn diy janji nak pegi sbb talk tu pukul 10 pagi tapi malangnya aku dgn diy enak dibuai mimpi pagi ahad, lalu kami tak jadi pergi.
aku malu dgn diri aku sendiri sbb mempunyai sikap hangat-hangat tahi ayam. maybe kalau aku berjanji dalam weblog ni, aku akan punya rasa malu kalau aku tak dapat tunaikan janji aku tu.
oleh itu, aku SITINESTA berjanji akan melibatkan diri secara aktif dalam aktiviti-aktiviti amal anjuran Mercy dalam tahun ini by hook or by crook or else....
sabtu lepas kelas, aku ngan diy pegi berjaya times square. sbb aku bawak kereta pun bukannya terer sgt, aku parking kat sebelah berjaya tu sbb aku dah biasa parking kat situ. padahal hujan renyai2 masa tu.
ini kali pertama kita org jejak kaki kat mall ni. entah kenapa bangunan ni mengingatkan kita org kat takashimaya di singapura. tapi aku rasa berjaya times square ni besar je lebih. kedai2 kat situ macam chokia jer brg2 dia. harga lak mahal. aku beli jeans RM12 kat kl central tu pun lagi stylo, aku rasa. pasaraya dia pun macam hampeh jer.
aku ngan diy paling teruja tengok tempat makan dia. tiga tingkat tuuu! kita org sampai tak tau nak pilih yg mana satu tapi nak pilih tu ikut budget gak ler kan. hehehe...last2 kita org makan kat satu restoran nyonya ah tuan's eels. sedap jugak aku makan fried rice with yoghurt curry chicken tapi tak pedas sgt. sambal belacan dia pun sedap tapi pedas dia tak kaw-kaw. kita org order paiti, blh tahan ler, teringat kakak aku dulu rajin buat paiti masa zaman bujang dia.
kat situ ada johnny's steamboat. alamak, next month ler makan kat situ. dulu kawan aku keja johnny's, aku makan free jer tapi baru dpt makan sekali dia dah berhenti. hampeh.
berjaya times square ni dalam bab toilet pun fail jugak. dah ler tak lawa lps tu buat toilet tu macam lepas batuk kat tangga je.
a wise man once said good things usually come in a small package. unfortunately, some of our local entrepreneurs are megalomaniac.
yeah! milan won. they beat roma with styles man and at roma's own turf. roma's unbeaten record was no more. hehehe...eat that Capello.
shevchenko's on fire, it's almost impossible to stop the ukrainian bullet when he's in top form. sheva scored twice, both were crosses from the talented seedorf and rui costa respectively. the first goal, typical sheva with great control using his chest and a clinical finish to the delight of the milan's fans.
welcome to hell christian chivu! i was so disappointed when you joint Roma. maybe you should stick to Ajax.
as expected, cafu was injured and simic came in. cafu gave an entertaining run, if i can called it that. hehehe...
it seems that the 4-4-1-1 formation worked out in the end though the milanista looked shaky for the first 20 minutes. the ball was hardly out of the milan's half. after much cursing in malay, english, cantonese and italian by yours truly, milan finally created lots of beautiful chances and sheva scored the first goal.
i think the formation did give rui costa, kaka and seedorf the opportunity to be more creative in creating goals. earlier, it has to be either kaka or rui but now they worked well together. i think the game was more of the battle of the midfields. and milan's midfields came up on top with far more superior ball control and acurate passing.
at first i was worried with milan's defense when they lost nesta to injury, i mean who's going to be the stopper for Totti. And of all people, the midget-sized midfielder, Gattuso did just that. i mean the way he did it wasnt pretty but he served the purpose. hehehe..
Totti looked really frustrated at times.
roma's striker cassano scored an easy goal in the dying minute of the first half. nobody was marking him, he kinda just strolled and simply pushed the ball into the net. it's crazy or pazzo as the italian would say. john carew of roma was an excellent striker but even he couldn't do anything when met with the formidable back four.
dida is one of the best goalies in the world in my humble opinion. he saved milan's neck lots of times last night except for that stunt in the second half. what the hell was he thinking? pls we don't want another barthez ok! why did seedorf cut off his dreadlock. he looked like kluivert from behind, that is.
second half, roma seemed disorganised and sheva took advantage of it and scored the second goal. i still wasn't impressed with pancaro. his passing was terrible. milan's central defenders made out of two living legends Maldini and Costacurta. they did alright for late 30s players. ;-) pirlo can read the game easily but it was his reflexes that was slow. given time pirlo will become one of the best midfielders/playmakers the rossoneri ever produced.
forza milan!
tomorrow at 3.25 Milan will meet Roma at the Olympico Stadium. i have to sleep early to be able to watch the game.
judging from milan's performances over the last two games, roma will probably make a mincemeat out of the milanistas.
some of the milan players are still hampered by fatigue, flu and injury, but then again, what else is new. so, bapak carlo will play 4-4-1-1. i'm with him as long as shevchenko is on top form. he's a perfect striker, much like henry. it's ok to play him either with inzaghi or tomasson because both are poachers but Sheva's the ultimate striker, he doesn't just score, he creates goal.
but im worried about the defense. Nesta wont be able to play tomorrow due to the operation. milan's defense is nothing to shout about without Nesta. laursen used to be a a good defender but he spent most of the seasons sitting on the bench. you could see his nervousness when he got the chance to play which was once in a blue moon and when he's nervous, he made mistakes like in the udinese's game.
simic is slightly better and cafu, well he's proned to injury, so does serginho. gosh i hope the two brazillians will give it all during the game. this is roma we're talking about. the most hated team.
totti will feel terribbly cocky if roma won and they have chivu for a central defender. Nesta is usually good at man-marking compared to other defender even maldini. Totti has no fix position and it'll be really difficult to man-mark him unless the defender is Nesta.
kaka, seedorf, pirlo, rui costa and gattuso can make a difference in this game. i hope they beat roma senseless. hehehe...
Forza Milan! Un Bacio
my colleague had asked me to join the second round of the epl fantasy football. im tempted to join and hope to beat all those guys from the technical dept. hehehe...but to play the manager wasn't easy. i dont play just for fun, i mean, i got to do research, i have to monitor all the players' performance every week and their worth, it's tiring. and i dont have time for that unless i own a computer. i have to know about their injuries etc, etc...well, maybe next season, who knows! i'll be so good, people from anfield will take notice and take me as a manager to replace Houllier. i love you mr gerard but maybe Reds needs a fresh face strategist to make a difference.
ahad malam aku pegi seksyen 14 ngan diy & zal. kita org gi check out buku kat pay less dlm jaya supermarket kat situ. giler, buku yg aku pinjam hari tu tak habis lagi, ada 17 buah lagi tak baca nak gi beli yg lain lak.
sedar tak sedar, ada ler dekat 2-3 bulan aku tak lalu situ, jadi aku tak perasan yg nama bangunan baru kat university hospital tu dah tukar drpd dataran trauma jadi trauma dan kecemasan.
masa kita org mula2 lalu dulu, terkejut gila tengok signage sebesar2 alam kat situ tulis Dataran Trauma. what the hell were they thinking, man! kalau aku jadi pesakit mau aku traumatised tengok sign macam tu. yelah biasanya dataran ni kita selalu kaitkan dgn benda2 yg "indah dan menyeronokkan" tapi ni tak. aku blh bayangkan perbualan camni:-
diy: hello! zal kau kat mana sekrg
zal: hi diy, aku kat dataran ni.
diy: oh ye ker, dataran mana, merdeka ke? ada apa kat situ?
zal: bukanlah aku kat dataran trauma, kawan aku accident.
diy: huh????
aku dengar ada org komplen kat newspaper pasal nama tu, sbb tu dia org tukar. selalulah macam tu, nak buat benda macam tak fikir. bila kena tegur baru nak tukar, kan dah jadi satu keja tu. bukan murah tu buat benda tu.
tak payahlah nak stylo mylo buat sesuatu tu. pikir dulu kesan dan kebernasannya.
Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I hope you had the time of your life.
I learnt to play this song last saturday. one of my favourite songs of all time and i had been wanting to play this song for so long. the lyric was amazing. it's kinda sums up everything that was in me. it's a brilliant song and somehow very simple to play. i would have thought by the sound of it, the song must have been difficult to play but it's not. i enjoy playing this greenday classic.
To james, you are the greatest sifu.
Thanks for playing those nirvana songs for me.
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