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dan jendela pun berbisik...
"Life is not about what you've gained, but what you've done" - Wong Ka Kui (1962 - 1993) "I disapprove of what you say but I will defend to the death your right to say it" - The Friends of Voltaire, 1906 "A dirty mind is a terrible thing to waste" - Anonymous "If you read, you will judge" - Kurt Cobain
last modified Mar 17, 2005 at 0:17
pagi tadi aku kena pergi taklimat sistem taksir sendiri. org lhdn tu datang bagi taklimat. aduh! boring macam nak mampos. dah ler kerja aku bertimbun. pening kepala rasanya. dah ler semalam kena bambu dgn boss aku tu, menjerit-jerit macam perempuan gila sampai satu floor ni dengar. kau marah-marah ler aku, aku berhenti 24 hours kang baru kau tau. aku dgn colleague aku jer yg tau camna nak handle IOP tu. colleague aku dah nak berhenti jugak next month. baru padan muka kau.
nasib baik aku cuti minggu depan dua hari. nak rehatkan kepala otak aku yg berserabut ni. hehehehe...
hari jumaat minggu lepas, aku dgn zal pergi opis diy kat bangi tu sbb ada makan-makan. temanya baju batik tapi aku tak pedulilah nak pakai sbb aku plan nak tengok rentak juara kat angkasapuri lepas majlis tu. nak pergi pun sbb ada spider buat persembahan.
nasib baik makan start pukul 9, sempat ni kalau makan lepas tu terus cabut balik. ikut NPE memang cepat gila, lagi takde kereta sgt yg lalu. masa dekat tol sungai besi, kawan aku call kata spider dah nak keluar, kita org panik gila takut tak sempat nak tengok. zal pun apa lagi speed gila punya. sampai kat angkasapuri, guard pun extra baik pulak malam tu bagi kita org parking kat dalam. ngam-ngam jer masuk kat dewan tu, spider pun start nyanyi tapi hampeh tak dapat tengok sebab org punyalah ramai sampai tak nampak pentas. nampak kepala org jer.
lepak kat luar lama jugak, bila tam spider keluar, kita org pun approach ler dia. borak-borak sikit pasal muzik, mintak tips pasal gitar kat tam. hehehe...last-last ambik gambar dgn dia. hehehe...cute gila mamat ni. aku rasa macam groupie lah pulak.
selasa minggu lepas, aku, diy dan zal pergi tengok scorpion. hahaha...poyo gila sampai masak kuih pau dan goreng karipap utk bawak bekal pergi tengok konsert. macam org kampung pulak aku rasa. macam mak aku kalau nak balik singapura, macam-macam bekal dia nak bawak.
sebenarnya, kita org bukannya ada tiket pun. kita org pergi bukan untuk tengok tapi utk dengar. kalau duduk kat luar stadium tu pun boleh dengar dia org nyanyi. kalau lepak dalam Victoria Institution tu lagi jelas. kita org malas nak tengok sebab dah tengok konsert dia org kat bukit jalil dua, tiga thn dulu.
masa sampai kat stadium merdeka tu, nampaklah sekumpulan org bawak sepanduk utk memprotes konsert tu. kat sepanduk tu dia org tulis "islam hadhari, scorpion bawak mari". sayang aku tak bawak kamera masa tu.
kita org ingat nak lepak kat gate G sbb kat situ privacy sikit dan gelap. lupa pulak nak bawak tikar, duduk jer lah kat atas tanah tu. sementara kita org lepak-lepak nak tunggu konsert tu start, tiba-tiba ada satu mamat tu datang kat aku tanya dah beli tiket ke belum? aku kata belum sambil tergelak. "nah ambik tiket ni, kawan saya tak datang." aku tercengang ler sekejap walaupun tangan aku menyambut tiket yg dia hulurkan. err! terima kasih bang!
kita org berpandangan sesama sendiri. aiseh! abang bagi pun tak guna jugak sbb kita org ni bertiga. ingatkan nak jual tiket tu tapi aku ubah fikiran. aku rasa macam nak simpan je buat kenangan. tiket RM70 tu. sambil lepak-lepak makan kuih pau tu, kita org menikmati lagu-lagu yg didendangkan oleh amy search. aku rasa dia org tu patut bawak lagu-lagu hits dia org macam kejora atau isabella ke sbb yg datang tengok konsert tu ramai yg 30 thn ke atas. yg dia pegi bawak lagu pawana tu apa kejadah. scorpion tu pun glam rock gak! lagu semua slow. kalau aku nak dengar lagu bingit baik aku pergi tengok gig, lagi best.
ramai jugak yg lepak kat luar macam kita org. kebanyakkannya mat rock dari indonesia. kesian jugak aku tengok sbb dia org tu memang nak tengok tapi tak mampu. banyak kali jugak aku tengok dia org ulang alik pergi kat kaunter tiket tu tanya. kesian. tapi ada satu brother indon tu lagi kesian. datang dgn baju koyak kat bahu, seluar koyak kat poket memang lusuh gila. aku rasa dia memang peminat hardcore punyalah. diri sorang-sorang termenung tengok kat kaunter tiket tu.
last-last diy cakap bagi jerlah kat abang indon tu. aku pun pergilah approach dia. bang nak tengok konsert ker? dia pun angguk, aku pun hulurlah tiket tu kat dia. berapa dia tanya sambil mengeluarkan dompet dia yg lusuh tu. aku cakap takpe ambiklah. dia terus tersenyum lebar dan cakap terima kasih kat aku. cara dia cakap tu macam aku ni bagi dia sesuatu yg berharga pulak. terharu gak aku sekejap. lepas tu kita org ambik keputusan nak blah jer dari situ.
balik dari stadium bukannya kita org terus balik ke rumah tapi pergi melawat highland tower pulak. dia org dah sekat jalan tu, tengok dari dalam kereta jer. memang menyeramkan tapi bila ingat balik tragedi yg berlaku, tu aduh! sedih gila. lama gaklah kita org perhatikan highland tower tu. macam-macam bermain kat kepala, terbayang-bayang liputan berita masa bangunan tu runtuh dulu.
lepas tengok highland tower tu barulah kita org balik rumah. tengok benda-benda macam tu buat mood aku jadi pensive...
hari ahad ni nak pergi majlis kawan aku kahwin dekat masjid persekutuan. cantik masjid tu, kalau terawih penuh jugak kat situ. tempat orang-orang kaya beribadat kata kawan aku. selamat berkahwin as!
my saturday activities never start before 2pm. the only reason i step out of the house at 2pm every saturday is because of my guitar class, otherwise i would just spend my saturday lepaking in front of the tv. yeah, i admit, im the number one couch potato. i dont know if anybody else would spend his or her saturday morning watching the stupid bold and beautiful soap operas like i do. hehehe..even my cats sleep all morning.
last saturday was different though. diy and i had to go out early because we both had an important meeting with the man behind malaysia's ac milan fan club. that wasnt our first meeting though. we've met before at the club's first gathering a few months ago. this time it was just the four of us at the caffee 1921, central market. we discussed the club while sipping our latte and it was heaven to me at least.
i mean, diy and i always had this talk about forming the ac milan's fan club. let's do it we told each other but the plan never materialised. now that we had this guy to do it for us, wow! i'd love to be involved in this club either directly or indirectly. this was like a dream come true. our very own ac milan fan club. phew! big responsibility though. i realised that passion alone wont help this club to be a success, it has to make profit somehow to stay alive.
in my opinion, the 1 1/2 hour meeting was very meaningful. those two guys were easy to talk to and it was really a fruitful discussion. however, i had to cut short the meeting because i needed to go to my class and i was already late. hehehe..but i know my teacher, james, wont mind. so, diy and i headed towards bangsar after bading them goodbyes.
i dropped diy at the MPH and went straight to my class. after playing yellow by coldplay for awhile, i told my teacher i wanted to play januari by glen. since he wasnt familiar with the song, i brought along my cd so that he could listen to it. it was fun searching for the chords of this song. the tempo, well, we just followed the drum beats. it was an easy song to play actually except for the modulation.
modulation means changing to another key. as for januari, when glen repeats the chorus, the melody was a note higher, it's crazy. it's so much easier to play the song with an electric guitar because of all the barre chords. if i have a capo, i dont have to play the barre chords. it's very difficult and painful to play barre chord with an acoustic guitar especially for a beginner like me. sheesh! bila nak jadi terer niii!
tomorrow is saturday. i have yet to master the A#M or even the C#M and D#M. urgh!!! this whole week was concentrated on football, i didnt have time to practise. sheesh! what a lame excuse.
i thought i could refrain myself from writing another football story in this weblog. however, the champions league match between liverpool and monaco last night was too beautiful to ignore.
the match held at anfield was really fantastic and the players were all excellent that i don't even know where to begin with. anyway, kudos to gerrard, garcia, cisse, finnan, alonso, josemi, carragher, hypia, dudek, kewell, baros, riise, warnock and the main man benitez.
it's been a long time since i last watched the reds played that well. they were composed and that was one hell of a fluid football, i tell ya! as i watched the game alone, i was almost out of my mind because i didn't have anybody to share the excitement with, thus this report.
the players were terrific especially the newcomers. i'll start with the defence first where liverpool's defence normally had troubled handling the counter attack. however, last night, hypia and carragher showed some solid defence in the centre flanked by both the talented josemi and riise. i think since, the arrival of josemi, the reds' backline had become very solid and confident. josemi himself is a very skilful and talented defender. i love watching him stopping and intercepting the opponents' movements. i thought riise's sliding tackle was getting better and better.
as for alonso, is there anything this man can't do? he can defend well and he can also attack splendidly. he's so talented that he helped inject the much needed support in the middle where hamann failed to do in the recent years. he helped covered gerrard's area when the captain moved forward which was almost all the time. gerrard, he's the kind of captain that any team would love to have. as for his skill, he is in a class of his own. his long passing to garcia in last night's game was out of this world. how did it he do it, i wonder? to be able to read the game and time your passing perfectly, man! im glad he chose to stay at anfield. kewell and finnan had also given solid performances with their accurate passings.
luis garcia put in a no-man zone, just behind the lone striker cisse created havoc in monaco's defence. garcia, in my humble opinion is a treasure for liverpool. he is the man to help the reds win every game. he's fast, smart and always at the right place and the right time. i can forgive him for missing a few chances if he can continue to play like that. man! that man was a spanish bullet or something? hehehe... cisse, well, cisse is outstanding; he is strong and fast. his first goal for the reds was a blast. and the built up to that first goal was remarkable. it's a great team goal. the pass from gerrad to garcia and finally to cisse was a wonderful play, it made me giddy man!
milan baros was a phenomenon last night. just look at his goal. man! his striker's instinct was so great, he could take his time to score and made the monaco's defence look like a limp. i am glad to see such talent put into used even though he only went in for the last 20 minutes but he really made a difference.
all in all, i could finally see the solidarity in the team that i have craved for so long. they play as a team now and what a solid and confident team it was. but theirs was still a long and winding road. it would take longer than this to have a complete almost perfect team and i couldnt wait for them to reach that level. the new liverpool does look promising and it is so mouthwatering to think about their clash against man united next week. forza reds
entah kenapa jumaat lepas, aku menjadi seorang yang sangat rajin. sampai rumah dalam pukul 7 malam, aku lepak sekejap melepaskan penat terperangkap dalam jam. hampeh! dalam pukul 8.30 tu aku tiba-tiba rasa macam nak kemas rumah. padahal, badan rasa macam penat gila tapi adrenalin aku buat aku rasa macam tak boleh duduk diam.
diy tak balik lagi, zal pulak pergi kursus dan yg tinggal hanya dua ekor kucing yg tak makan saman tu. kalau nak kemas rumah, gendon dan kaka kena masuk dalam sangkar dulu, barulah boleh kemas dgn amannya. lepas pasang mp3 kuat-kuat, aku pun mulakan sapu ruang tamu dan dapur beriya-iya. lepas tu aku moplah lantai pulak. sementara nak tunggu lantai ruang tamu tu kering aku berus lantai dapur dan biarkan air tu mengalir keluar ikut saluran kat beranda dapur tu. dah dekat pukul 11 lebih dah masa tu.
kebetulan diy pun balik, dia kata saluran tu dah tersumbat kena korek dgn kayu bagi air tu turun pelan-pelan. alamak, sekarang baru nak cakap ke, aku dah panik dah, masa tu badan dah rasa penat sangat. bila dah dekat nak setengah jam air tu tak turun-turun, aku dah naik geram, aku pun korek lagi saluran tu dgn kejamnya sampai terpecah saluran tu.
bunyi dia punyalah kuat, habis air kotor tu melimpah ke rumah bawah. bila aku tinjau boleh nampak beranda dapur rumah jiran bawah. aku dgn diy dah panik gila nak buat camna ni. kita org tutup semua lampu dan padamkan mp3 dan duduk senyap-senyap sambil berdoa yg rumah bawah tu takde org duduk.
tak sampai 10 minit, dah ada org ketuk pintu rumah. aduh diy, camna ni aku kata. lepas tu aci tu jerit-jerit suruh bukak pintu. aku pun cakap dgn diy, kita ngaku ajelah. bila bukak pintu, aku dgn diy menggunakan segala skill PR yg ada dalam diri kita org. sebenarnya, diy yg banyak cakap pun, aku dah keras kat situ dgn muka bersalah tak boleh cover punya. diy paling pandai kalau nak ambik hati org-org tua. aku selalu perasan, makcik-makcik memang suka dgn diy. hehehe...nasib baik auntie tu tak jadi nak marah. dia ajak tengok rumah dia dan periksa kerosakan yg telah aku lakukan.
settle lebih kurang, telefon brother maintenance dan aku kena bayar RM45. hampeh! dah ler tengah sengkek, tak pasal-pasal aku kena bayar untuk baiki saluran tu. aku cakap dgn diy, aku tak nak dah kemas rumah buat masa ni. hehehe....aku dgn diy offer gak nak bersihkan beranda dapur auntie tu tapi dia kata kata takpa dia boleh bersihkan.
hari ahad hari tu kita org pergi rumah auntie untuk tengok saluran air dia yg baru. aku dgn diy belikan auntie buah-buahan letak dalam bakul yg kita org beli kat kedai RM2. hehehe...PR bagus punya. tak pasal-pasal berkenalan dgn jiran di bawah rumah. ah! sudah! lepas ni kalau kita org bising tengok bola, auntie dah tau sape yg duduk kat atas rumah dia. sheesh!

happy birthday liza, my friend. how does it feel to be thirty, eh? hehehe...i can't believe we are still together after 17 years. people come and go in our lives and over the years we made so many new friends but we are still the best of friends and the friendship is still going strong. and i thank God for bringing you into my life all those years ago.
we were 13 years old when we first met. and i want you to know this always, even though i couldn't recall how we became friends, i will always remember the journey of our friendship. the memory remains my friend, the memory remains....happy birthday!
minggu lepas, kehidupan malam aku disulami dengan acara-acara seni. aku rasa macam tak menang tangan nak tengok semuanya. tapi bila dah datang gian, susah macam mana pun aku cuba jugak menghadirkan diri kat majlis-majlis seni ni.
aku rasa tahun ni aku kurang menonton teater tapi lebih banyak ke majlis puisi. konsert pun aku tak pergi satu pun. travel pun tidak. kali terakhir aku pergi bercuti kat pulau rahsia aku tu dgn zal, lepas tu dah tak pergi mana-mana. langkawi tu tak kira sebab pergi bekerja. sindrom malas aku pun dah makin menjadi-jadi sekarang ni. asyik nak lepak kat rumah jer. kalau tak baca buku, tengok tv, main gitar. aduh bosannya hidup.
rabu maghin, lepas maghrib, aku, diy dan zal pergi DBP sebab nak tengok Kyogen. kita org pun sebab last minit baru teringat, takdelah booking tiket ke apa. organiser tu kata tiket dah habis tapi kalau nak cuba nasib datang ajelah sebab dia org ada tiket standbye. hehehe...nasib baik ada. tiket tu buat syarat jer sebenarnya sebab show tu free.
kyogen sebenarnya sebahagian daripada teater klasik jepun walaupun taklah sehebat kabuki tapi best jugaklah. aku pun tak tau apa nak expect bila pergi tengok teater kyogen ni. rupanya kyogen ni lebih pada teater komedi. masa pelakon dia mulakan kyogen tu, aku dah bantai tergelak bukan sebab aku paham apa dia cakap tapi cara dia cakap tu yg kelakar. penonton-penonton lain macam dah bengang, ler bukannya aku gelak kuat-kuat pun cuma bahu jer yg terinjut-injut menahan ketawa.
zal dah sepak-sepak kaki aku tapi aku tak boleh tahan nak ketawa. memang gila sakit perut tahan ketawa.
walaupun tak faham apa dia cakap tapi sinopsis cerita tu dah ada, jadi boleh agaklah rentak ceritanya. aku paling suka costume pelakon-pelakonnya. stailo giler. cerita yg pertama tajuknya Kazumo (Bergusti Sumo dengan Seekor Nyamuk). mula-mula macam boring jugaklah. aku dah nak tertidur-tidur dah. kalau faham tu satu hal lah jugak, ni tak faham. tapi dah dekat nak penghujung tu baru nampak kelakar dan terhibur jugaklah.
cerita kedua lebih senang aku nak hayati walaupun masih tak faham satu pun apa dia cakap. aku tengok budak-budak melayu dari ambang asuhan jepun tu tengok beriya-iya, jeles jugak aku. sah-sahlah dia org faham. tajuk cerita tu Ne Ongyoku (Menyanyi Sambil Berbaring). aku rasa ne ongyoku tu lebih best walaupun pelakonnya dua orang aje sebab jalan ceritanya mudah.
lepas persembahan tu habis, pelakon-pelakon kyogen tu bagi penonton sedikit pengetahuan tentang asal usul kyogen. Sentaro Ohkura tu umur lebih kurang aku jer tapi dia dah travel sana sini untuk memperkenalkan kyogen. apa yang aku paling kagum sekali dia kata dia akan pastikan kyogen tu takkan pupus. dia akan ajar anak dan cucu dia seperti mana bapa dan datuk dia ajar dia. sentaro ni kira generasi ke 25 yang turun temurun mempersembahkan kyogen. dahsyat ler mamat ni.
jumaat malam, aku dgn diy pergi pulak ke Dewan MBSA kat shah alam tu semata-mata nak tengok xpdc.dah rindu gila nak tengok izo main gitar live. nak dengar suara ali. nak dengar permainan bass yan yg cun. aku tengok drummer baru dia org macam cool jer budaknya. rancangan rentak juara tu selalunya buat kat angkasapuri tapi sbb ada rehearsal deklamasi tu yg pindah ke shah alam tu. tengok azwan ali secara live buat aku rasa nak baling jer mamat tu dgn kasut. sheesh! tak berkenan langsung aku. jumpak man kidal, salam sifu. dia memang cool. alamak xpdc main dua lagu, itu pun separuh-separuh, siot betul. dah ler jauh aku datang, sesat nak ke kelang sampai, itu jer dapat. sheesh!
hari sabtu, siang pergi kelas macam biasa. cikgu masih tak puas hati dgn gaya strumming aku. weh! tensennya aku rasa nak baling jer gitar tu. belajar lagu yellow-coldplay. hmmm....yea! aku sudah beli tuner, jadi aku tidak perlu lagi berhempas pulas tune gitar sendiri. hahahaha....
balik kelas aku tanya diy, teater fauziah nawi tu kat mana? entahlah! lupa nak periksa, dia cakap. lepas tu budak gila tu cakap lagi, 'kita pergi ikut instinctlah.' jadah! aku cakap tapi dalam hati instinct aku kata kat istana budaya tapi diy punya instinct kata kat MTC. aku malas nak dengar kata hati aku jadi aku ikut kata hati diy dan kita org pun pergilah MTC tapi abang guard tu cakap kat istana budaya. alamak aku dgn diy pakai t-shirt je tapi ada bawak sweaterlah. so, kita org pergi pulak istana budaya, masa tu dah pukul 9pm. aku ingat nak kensel jer tapi diy kata tanya jerlah dulu. nasib baik, rupanya show tu lambat start sebab ada masalah teknikal.
pada aku perjalanan bu aminah tu sebuah karya agung w.s rendra. malangnya, aku tak rasa fauziah nawi berjaya melahirkan impak emosi melalui corak teater yang dipilihnya. cerita seperti ini aku rasa lebih impak lagi jika tidak dilakukan secara monolog. rasanya, fauziah nawi ada ramai anak didikan yg berbakat tapi bakat mereka tu tak diekploitasikan sepenuhnya melalui perjalanan bu aminah ini kerana stail monolgnya itu.
aku cukup kagum dengan bait-bait kata rendra, siapa pun tidak dapat menafikan itu. tapi melalui teater ini, hati aku tidak tersentuh langsung walaupun takdir maria zaiton dan bu aminah tu begitu perit sekali untuk ditelan...

I told the photographer that i had fallen in love with this picture at first sight. hehehe...
so, Stephen Plant of Derby, United Kingdom, you are a great photographer and thank you for letting me used your picture in my blog. 
wujudmu di sini di tanah anak merdeka bagai obor ilmu memayungi putra putrinya pelopor hidup, budaya, bangsa, agama...negara pembentuk akhlak manusia agar jadi sempurna
ku yang melangkah ke sini ingin mempelajari rahsia di muka bumi dengan cara hakiki tunjukkan aku jalan ilmumu untukku menuju destinasi cita-cita negara dan bangsaku
majulah bangsa maju negara berkat usaha jaya mara kami berikrar akan berjasa hingga kita berjaya...demi bangsa
watikah yang kumiliki kan ku semat dihati janjiku pada pertiwi untuk menabur bakti ku sempurnakan seikhlas hati membela negara doa restu ayah bonda ku untuk semua ITM...usaha jaya mara
this song used to be one of my favourite songs. it never failed to bring tears to my eyes especially when it was sang during my graduation day.
for four gruelling years, the itm's main campus was my haven. this was the place where i gained my knowledge and also a place where i learned about friendship, love and life. my coursemates were my siblings and my lecturers were my parents. the school of masscomms was witnessed to my tears and my laughter. the school saw me blossomed from a mere teenager to a woman.
the old "menara" where the old school of masscomms was located may look bleak on the outside but take the elevator and stop at these three levels - 11, 12 and 13 and you'd find a whole new world there.
during my time, level 13 was the mecca for the masscomms students. if i closed my eyes now, i can see hundreds of seniors and juniors walking in the hallway, the seniors could be seen laughing and joking while some of the juniors look confused and frightened. those were the days. the fact was level 13 was so lively and steeped in tradition that it affected the students for life. it had been labelled "level maksiat" by some students. hehehe....mind you, the level 13's secrets will remain intact.
the foyer at the menara was where couples met, a place for study groups to discuss and a place where we checked each other out. the foyer was where the "budak engin" or the engineering students hang out after class while waiting for the secretarial science students to finish their class. then the "mating game" begun.
hahaha...the SS14 as the secretarial science students were known back then were the epitome of glamour and sophistication in dressing and behaviour. it was obvious why the guys loved the foyer so much. as for the law students, well the word square and arrogance came to mind.
as for the art and design students, they were in a world of their own. they were creative and eccentric people and definite trend-setters.
why did i go down memory lane all of a sudden? last week, diy, zal and i had visited our old campus simply for old time's sakes. i guess it's all started with zal's recent convocation. she did her degree in itm and her masters at the universiti malaya. so, she went through two different convocations. it's difficult for her not to compare the two convocations.
in zal's opinion, the itm's convo was special not just to the graduates but also to their families. who could forget walking behind the chancellors and all the academicians into the huge hall watched proudly by our parents. who could forget the sound of the gamelan played live by the music students. well, the art & design students got to play a song of their choice. during my convo, the titanic's soundtrack was really popular. urgh!
the loud clapping, the screams and the catcalls were saved for the masscomms students, a bunch of lunatics, us all.
huge tents, chairs and wide screen were provided outside the hall for the rest of the families. in this case, i am really proud of the way itm treated the students' families.
however, it was different with the convo in um. well, to make a long story short, everything was plainly detached. from the background music to the way the event was handled. they didnt go through the "walk of fame". the students went straight into the hall and sat along with their parents, waiting for the chancelors and what have you to go into the hall.
there was no tents, chairs and wide screen provided for the rest of the relatives outside. imagine a 70-year-old grandmother waiting for her grandaughter outside the hall under the sun, sheesh!
as for my recent visit to the main campus, i only had this to say: it was no longer the itm i knew. almost everything was new. so many new complicated-looking buildings. the old menara was no longer the hub of activities. it look dead. it was dead. the school of masscomms was no longer there, neither was CS and Engineerings. they all have their own faculties now. i forgot, it is a university now. i hope in their pursuit of becoming one of the top universities in the country, the traditions will not be forgotten and the quality of students must be maintained....
mencari itm yg hilang....
alhamdulillah! Anwar Ibrahim akhirnya dibebaskan.
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