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dan jendela pun berbisik...
"Life is not about what you've gained, but what you've done" - Wong Ka Kui (1962 - 1993)
"I disapprove of what you say but I will defend to the death your right to say it" - The Friends of Voltaire, 1906
"A dirty mind is a terrible thing to waste" - Anonymous
"If you read, you will judge" - Kurt Cobain
last modified Mar 17, 2005 at 0:17
looking forward to watch:-
4 Feb - Sana'y Wala Nang Wakas (final episode)
16 Feb - CSI (Season 5)
23 Feb - AC Milan vs Man United (Champions league)
27 Feb - Liverpool vs Chelsea (Carling Cup Final)
there is no EPL game this weekend because of FA Cup. it saddened me to look at the games schedule because liverpool isnt in it. bloody rafa benitez, didnt he knows that FA Cup is a big thing in England. losing to the lowly burnley, what the hell? kalau team second kau tu kuat macam chelsea ke arsenal takpelah jugak. apa ke budusnya! then to make it worst, beaten by the almost relegated southampton by 2-0. wei, everybody beat southampton lah ngok. tu kan pasukan belasahan, camna kau boleh kalah dgn dia org. defence macam hampeh. hypia, what kind of a central defender are u? why the hell did u leave your penalty area without a single defender except for the goalie. tak boleh pikir ke, you already had the left and right backs to do the running tak payah lah kau sibuk2 naik ke atas. wei mangkuk, kau tu sweeperlah bodoh bukan striker. aduh! sakit hatilah macam ni. tak mau cakap lagilah.
astro ni lagi satu mangkuk, balik2 tunjuk delayed game milan. kau tunjuk pukul 6 pagi sapa nak tengok, hampeh! org nak bersiap pergi kerjalah masa tu. nesta received two red cards in a space of three weeks. that's bad news which means that his tackles weren't so precised anymore. milan's back four had conceded more and more goals which was terribled imho. milan will face bologna this sunday. milan beat bologna 2-0 last september and hopefully they will beat them again. we badly need the three points after losing to livorno 0-1 last weekend. forza milan!
n/b: penat gila tengok semi final australian open hari tu. macam nak pengsan tunggu game federer vs safin tu habis. 4 jam 28 minit, aku sempat sembahyang asar, lepas tu maghrib, baca yasin, sembahyang isyak, bagi kucing aku makan, pun game tu tak habis-habis lagi. giler.
zal, my roommate of four years got engaged yesterday. she was wearing a cream, lace baju kurung and cream tudung and was so beautiful. i have never seen her wearing a full make up in all the years that we have known each other and she did look really stunning, her radiant face a reflection of her total happiness.
there i was, sitting in the small room watching and observing one of my closest friends who was about to become engaged, wondering what will happen to our friendship. deep down inside i am so happy for her but i could not help but felt betrayed somehow...
for months i watched her slowly changed into a different person. she became more secretive and slightly off focused. sometimes, it seemed that she didnt have time for us anymore. the three of us used to go everywhere together but now it is just diy and i. she had also changed her style of dressing. she no longer wear jeans and t-shirt but choose to wear skirt and blouse. i once told her whatever happened, dont loose yourself and identity and we didnt speak for three days after that. well, me and my big mouth.
i guess it's God's will when it comes to love and marriage. i think even zal herself did not mean to fall in love, it just happened. i guess it hit her hard you know. i dont know why she was being secretive but i believed it had to do with the pact we made a few years ago about not having any relationship before we were able to make a trip to Italy. in a way, she had broken her promise but it was a stupid pact to begin with anyway. who the hell did we think we were to play God all those years ago. our destiny is in God's hand of course. i believe zal had met her match and i wish her all the happiness in this world.
it was stranged, when i recalled a conversation that i had with my best friends during high school a long long time ago. in our naivety, we told each other what age we would like to get married. as a teenager, i thought that love and marriage would come naturally into my life and i will marry when i was of a certain age but in reality, it didnt work that way because in order to marry you have to love and be loved unless you are being forced into a marriage. hehehe...
my mom once told me to go and find love instead of waiting for it to fall into my lap. i told her i dont want to be like perigi cari timba but my mom said that was not the case. she told me that not many people are fortunate enough to fall in love at first sight or something to that effect. i was like "yeah mom, whatever!"
well, my problem is i have never fallen in love with any man in all 31 years of my life. i felt attracted and infatuated with lots of men yes, but i was never in love. some people said it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. i dont know,maybe i was emotionally handicapped or maybe i am just downright choosy.
however, choosy is one thing but i believe love is a powerful feeling. no matter how choosy a person is, when it comes to falling in love, nothing else matters, right? neither status nor looks matters for love is blind. as for being loved by someone, well there were a few guys who were interested but the chemistry just wasnt there, so to speak...
not having the face and body that can stop traffic reduced my chances of being noticed by the opposite sex combined with my strange hobbies and outspokeness which is a no no in this part of the world. or maybe i exuded a negative aura that sent the wrong signal to the guys. good God! this is really a fun subject to explore, i couldnt stop laughing while writing this. i felt like carrie bradshaw minus the relationship and blahnik of course. hehehe...
what worried me was i didnt really give a damn about it. i should worry about it shouldnt i? then again, maybe i am abnormal. my biology clock is ticking i know but i am just not interested in having any relationship right now. there are so many things i want to do. my priorities are in jumbles right now but i promise myself to sort them out.
so, it is fascinating to watch my roommate going through all the phases of love. i think she will be married by mid year. and i couldnt wait to see how she behave during this period of engagement. my only regret was when zal stopped going to her classical guitar class after she met the love of her life. i really missed our classical versus acoustic session. man! she was so gifted. i guess i will no longer have the chance to hear her playing bengawan solo ever again. well, good luck to you zal. be happy and after you get married, please remember me once in a while...arriverdeci mi amico
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Bukak radio di pagi hari
Malam hari sama sahaja
Cinta sana cinta sini
Aku gila geli
Bukak radio omputih
Propaganda Amerika
Apa benda yang merdeka
Jilat bontot depa
Apa benda yang merdeka
Bila kawan ramai keliling kita
Cakap besar tunjuk belang
Tapi bila sorang-sorang
Pengecut pemalu
Macam semua orang
Saya ini pun bukan sempurna
Tapi saya tahu
Dosa dan pahalaku tuhan saja
Tuhan saja yang tahu
Geylang si paku geylang
Geylang si rama rama
Tentang marilah tentang
Marilah tentang bersama sama
i do not know how to categorise butterfingers' selamat tinggal dunia...but IMHO, it is superb. loque memang gempak.
aku ni sekarang tengah suffer information overload. otak aku rasa macam nak burst. hah! itulah, nak sangat, ambik kau! kerja aku ni, dia org ni semua suka bagi last minit lepas tu nak cepat. pengsanlah aku camni.
sabtu maghin, pukul 3 petang baru aku dapat balik rumah, itu pun aku cabut balik sebab tak nak miss kelas gitar. bendanya nak hari isnin ni tapi statistik tak dapat lagi. lecehlah nak buat questions & answers menteri ni. bukan boleh nak tipu-tipu. everything pun facts. lepas tu tak siap lagi benda tu, suruh aku translate skrip untuk audio lak. takpelah, itu aku boleh buat kat rumah masa hujung minggu. nak hari isnin gak. aduh!
bila bawak balik kerja kat rumah ni tak tenang betul jiwa aku nak buat benda lain. bila pergi kelas je yang boleh buat aku lupa segala masalah; yelah masalah nak fikir chord dgn tablature pulak datang. hahaha...tapi yang bestnya aku belajar lagu nirvana - come as you are. dah lama aku ngidam nak main lagu ni. dapat jugak akhirnya. cikgu aku yang baru ni garang sikit berbanding cikgu aku yang dulu. jadi, rajin le sikit aku praktis. dua minggu lepas, aku belajar lagu wonderwall. tapi sekarang ni aku suka sangat jam lagu beatles - blackbird tu. tiap2 malam mesti aku nak main lagu ni.
hari ni isnin, aku bagi semua kerja aku, ingatkan nak relaks jap, boleh aku mengarang kat weblog. sekali editor suruh aku buat translation sampai dua, lepas tu proof read sampai lima pages. tak sempat aku nak review pasal game milan dgn liverpool kat weblog ni. ni nak marah ni. ah! aku tak kira, aku nak buat esok aje. kepala otak aku penat sekarang...
i have finally succumbed to "peer pressure". hehehe...i can no longer called myself a loyal person; for i, who pledged to stay true to my 11-year-old SLR Canon Eos Elan and Minolta 7-xi cameras had finally ditched them for a digital one.
yeah! so, i am a hard-nosed when it comes to try new things. conservative, old fashioned, call me whatever you want but that's just the way i am.
it's not easy for me to make the decision to buy a digital camera and i mulled over it time and time again until it literally gave me a headache. it's not that i have anything against digital cameras mind you. it's just that photography is another subject that im passionate about, not that i am good at it, that is. :-(
actually, i have this stupid hang up about using automatic cameras. i felt sort of like cheating myself if i didn't control the light or aperture manually and if i had to totally depend on the camera to do everything, where was the excitement?
sigh!!!the real reason i bought a new camera and a digital one at that was because both my cameras had gone kaput recently. both cameras could not function properly after their last visit to the repair shop. i know they had been my constant companion for 11 years and i had captured so many faces, picturesque landscapes and myriad of events, both happy and sad throughout their lense. man! i love both cameras very much and since my brother bought them for me, there's some kind of sentimental value to that.
nothing last forever in this world but i stubbornly clung to my old cameras because they meant so much to me, in the end i have to let them go. i felt like i had betrayed them somehow but i knew if i sent them to the repair shop, it would cost me dearly, so i might as well buy a new one. i guess the practical side of me finally saw the convenience of having a digital camera.
to tell you the truth, i knew nothing about digital cameras and has no interest in them at all. i guess i wasnt' so hip and IT savvy after all. so forgive me if i went out and buy a digital camera because it looks like a miniature of my old camera and not because i knew anything about it. people like me probably need the complete idiot's guide on how to buy a good digital camera. hehehe...
i like this camera though, i guess it's love at a first sight. it's bigger than the other sony cybershots or any other digital cameras for that matter but i was used to huge cameras. it has the manual focus and that's important to me. i guess that's about it.
so, i am a proud owner of Sony DSC-V3 now. the first time i used it was in Genting last saturday. i had yet to finish reading the manual and if my latest picture had last year's date, it's because i didn't know how to change it at that time. i plan to travel more this year and DSC-V3 will keep me company throughout all my journey, hopefully so.
and to my old cameras, thank you for the memories. i will find a way to make the both of you well again. till next time, selamat tinggal....
kawan aku call ajak pergi satu syarikat akhbar ni sebab dia kata ada open discussion pasal football. aku pun tak naklah tolak peluang keemasan macam tu, bila lagi nak dapat diskus pasal bola secara open macam tu. lepas kerja khamis maghin, aku pergi ke jalan riong sorang-sorang sebab diy tak dapat ikut. selalunya aku tak berani nak pergi sorang tapi sebab it's a subject that close to my heart, so aku pun beranikan diri pergi.
bila sampai, rupa-rupanya forum tu diasingkan untuk lelaki dan perempuan. dalam group aku ada lima orang dan aku perempuan yang paling tua dalam group tu. kesiannya aku. daripada lima orang tu, sorang minat liverpool, sorang tu hard-core fan arsenal, dua org lagi minat gitu-gitu aje dan aku. hahaha...
surprisingly, we had a very lively discussion. everyone was really enthusiastic about the subject. i felt jubilated to have this kind of opportunity to discuss football freely, to say what i wanted to say, to give my opinion about the coverage of football in general in our local newspapers. in my humble opinion, there's room for improvement, of course.
we also discussed about the epl coverage in the newspapers and i was arguing that the local papers focused too much on epl and i thought there should be more coverage on other leagues also. neither the moderators nor the other participants agreed with me. it's a bit frustrating but at least i tried. opps! they actually wanted the opinion of female readers about the newspaper's pull out about football.
aku rasa dia orang pun tak sangka yang pembaca wanita akan baca apa yang aku cadangkan tu. i mean, why not? entahlah, mungkin aku ni syok sendiri dan tak mewakili semua pembaca wanita but i know three other persons who are interested in reading everything about football as much as i do. dunia football tu sendiri is very interesting, on the field and off the field.
tak payah cerita pasal football itself lah but talking about the transfer window or even brand war pun best giler. betul, contohnya bila baca pasal brand nike dgn adidas. i mean nike tak tau apa2 pasal football and the nike people dont give a damn about the beautiful game compared to adidas yang dah berpuluh2 tahun memonopoli dunia football. bezanya adidas cares about the game tapi kenapa nike menguasai pasaran football di europe sekarang dan bukannya adidas. fikirkanlah!
lama gak kita orang diskus dekat 2 jam setengah tolak berhenti maghrib dan makan. adalah dekat pukul 10 malam jugak baru kita orang balik. aku sukalah budak-budak tu, dia orang sporting especially peminat arsenal tu. aku rasa puas hati dapat join discussion yang macam ni. harap-harap dia orang buatlah lagi lepas ni. kawan aku yang berdiskus dalam group lelaki tu kata dia orang punya lagi hangat. berdebat beriya-iya tu yang dia orang habis lambat dari kita orang. boleh tak lain kali aku join group lelaki, barulah best. ;-) tapi apa yang aku dengar, kawan aku tu sama macam aku dia pun perjuangkan untuk coverage liga-liga lain especially serie A. tapi aku rasa kita orang ni buang masa aje cakap pun sebab memang org malaysia ni gila epl nak buat camna.
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