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dan jendela pun berbisik...
"Life is not about what you've gained, but what you've done" - Wong Ka Kui (1962 - 1993)
"I disapprove of what you say but I will defend to the death your right to say it" - The Friends of Voltaire, 1906
"A dirty mind is a terrible thing to waste" - Anonymous
"If you read, you will judge" - Kurt Cobain
last modified Mar 17, 2005 at 0:17
it's 4.40am. aku baru jer habis tengok game liv-chelsea. god! i wish benitez tak beli crouch tu. tak pernah aku tengok striker semangkuk dia tu. penat jer aku defend dia hari tu masa brother aku cakap liv patut beli jer owen. at this rate, aku pun rasa camtu gak tapi tak naklah ngaku kat depan brother aku tu. hahaha...game tadi, so-so ajer. as usual, chelsea's game boring macam cipan, liverpool lebih entertaining. milan seri dgn schalke. aku makin risau dgn defence milan ni. almost every game bolos. apa citer! yg aku geram tu astro tak tunjuk langsung game milan. macam mana nak tau problem milan kalau tak dapat tengok game. hampeh!
aku dah nak masuk empat hari duduk kat cyberview lodge ni. i've had the last laugh sebab kat chalet ni dia orang provide free internet. happy giler aku dapat masuk blogspot dgn forum. daripada hari jumaat hari tu aku bertungkus lumus siapkan 4 speeches, 1 talking point dan satu media release. tak cukup tidur semuanya pasal nak beat the deadline hari selasa hari tu. memang bengong kepala otak aku rasa. selasa pagi aku pergi kerja, amend apa yg patut, lepas tu aku hand over everything kat satu division tu. dah, aku tak nak ambik tau pasal benda tu lagi. media registration friday ni kau orang buatlah sendiri. aku nak pergi cyberjaya.
aku sekarang ditugaskan utk jadi liaison officer utk dua org french journalists ni. dia org ni nak buat coverage pasal cyberjaya dgn putrajaya, so aku kena accompany dia orang utk interview and stuff.
tapi bila dah tiga hari dengan dia orang ni, aku rasa temper aku ni macam nak meletup. patience is virtue kata orang tapi kalau ikutkan hati aku tak sabar memang aku dah maki-maki dah mat saleh dua orang ni. time2 macam ni yang aku rasa tak kisah suruh aku tulis 10 speeches pun aku sanggup daripada jadi LO utk dia orang ni. im not good with people, serious tapi aku pelakon yang bagus. so, dgn muka manis terpaksalah aku melayan semua kehendak dia org. mangkuk, kerja takde etika. kau ingat senang nak barge in aje kat company besar2 kat sini. dia org tu R&D, kang tak pasal2 dia org ingat aku involve ngan industry espionage lak kat sini.
hari ni last aku kat cyberview, lepas tu aku akan pindah ke shangrila plak. sheesh! rasa nak nangis bila terkenangkan kena spend sampai hari ahad ni dgn dia orang. mahu gila aku agaknya. aku rindu nak balik rumah. baik aku layan kucing aku kaka dgn gendon, lagi best. bila dah pindah ke shangrila tak dapatlah aku layan internet lagi. it's going to be a long day, i tell you. dapat ground handler pun macam cipan. naik betul darah aku ni. sitinesta, sabar! it's all in a day's work.
baru dapat tengok highlight milan-schalke. hah! gol schalke tu a deflection from a defender none other than Nesta himself. alamak horrornya aku. takde sapa marking mamat yang tanduk bola ke gol milan tu. second goal schalke. that was superblah. defenders memang takleh buat apa. tapi dida tu yg misjudged the shot. aku paling tak suka kalau goalie pergi jauh dari posisi dia. kalau dida stay put, maybe he could still save the ball from going in. entahlah tak taulah aku. siut betul. weh, second goal milan tu, maldini's cross was superb and sheva executed it beautifully. happy birhtday sheva.
apa-apa pun, selamat berpuasa kepada semua umat Islam. terawih, jgn tak terawih, kato org kampung den.
the champions league games over the last two days proved very exciting and high on adrenaline. sleep was no longer an option during this season.
i was wondering why they didnt show any of the italian teams' match. they didnt show milan's Serie A game against siena last saturday and again last wednesday's champions league against fenerbache. i cant rate their current performance without watching the whole match. highlight doesnt count since it doesnt show much except for the score/goal if there is any. astro is an absolute epl's fanatic.
the Reds inconsistencies are like a thorn in my side making me depressed after every stalemate game that belied their champion of europe title. the recent epl's match against tottenham was quite entertaining actually but as usual it ended up scoreless. in my humble opinion, liverpool was lucky to get away with a draw.
after two seasons, i suddenly realised that rafa benitez is a heavy gambler. an addiction that could backfired but if his game plan hit jackpot, liverpool will reap benefit from it. i am not much of a gambler. i didnt agree with benitez's decision to sell baros to aston villa in the first place. i know that he build his team around the midfield believing that 4-5-1 is better than the more conventional 4-4-2. i am not a fan of the 4-5-1 formation as i believe the game will be more entertaining with two strikers. remember the raul-morientes partnership during real madrid glory days, inzaghi-del piero of juventus and not forgetting the legendary van basten-gullit of milan. those were some of the greatest striking pairs in the world of football, well in my book, that is.
we have to admit that liverpool does not have a lethal striker. cisse can give the 100m athlete a run for the money but he cant handle one-one situation, in fact, he faltered every time. i dont understand him at all. crouch didnt do much on his debut but he was quite impressive during the champions league game. and still he is not up to that par. rafa must play two strikers upfront unless liverpool has a striker of a shevchenko's magnitude. i think it's poetic justice when morientes suddenly got injured during training right after rafa sold baros. it would teach him the importance of having two or three spare strikers in case something happened to the main strikers. however, morientes has yet to regain his form even without the injury. i've lost confidence in him.
i dont know whether the current liverpool team has enough depth to allow meaningful rotation for a realistic assault on both domestic and european competitions. would gerrard agree to relinquish his prestigious position to the like of zenden, the veteran dutch in a regular basis? but surprisingly, rafa's gamble paid off last wednesday when the partnership between garcia and zenden worked really well. however, i am a bit doubtful about the defence though. jamie and hypia seemed to be gamblers themselves when they staged the offside trap to often for my liking. it's too dangerous especially with the reds' new goalkeeper. from my observation, reina panic easily when he was in a one-to-one situation. i hated it when he went charging after the strikers and leaving his goal open and vulnerable. that's not good news especially when hypia was often caught drifting out of his position.
there is no doubt that jamie carragher is the reds' rock and anchor. finnan and warnock are getting better and better while sissoko has yet to show his skill. what do u have sissoko??? i would take comfort from the always reliable and unassuming xavi with his razorlike cutting passes trademark. he reminded me of andrea pirlo of milan sometimes. both are elegant playmaker in my opinion. sinama pongolle was a surprised last wednesday. i have almost forgotten about him. he hasnt played for so long due to injury. liverpool must keep hamman as he provides experience and skill.
this sunday, the reds will meet man united for the first time in this new season. i dont know what the score will be and how liverpool will fare against a top form man united. if rafa benitez is smart and a little dirty, he will tell his players to ruffle a certain midfielder's feather. hahaha...rooney is only 19 and a loose cannon. tight marking on nilsteroy and scholes is a must, there is no excuse for the defenders if they failed to do that. chewah! aku pulak yang sibuk mengalahkan benitez. it baffled me that benitez failed to penetrate the english league while being so successful in the european circuit. what gives? between the two REDS, i hope liverpool will emerge the winner this sunday.
from the highlight of the champions league, i could see kaka is on top form. last season, he was deteriorating a little bit in terms of form that is. that second goal against fenerbache was phenomenal. running between three defenders and scoring from that angle was a dream come true. but it was pirlo's cheeky back-heel that really caught my attention. that man was really brilliant, i tell you. was it necessary for gattuso to give away the penalty like that to the opponent? did he think if he didnt push anelka, the latter would have scored against such high profiled defenders like maldini and nesta. no way jose! when it comes to one-on-one, nesta and maldini are the best stoppers. the defence weakness though is the set piece. they really have to work on that. i hope astro will show milan's game against sampdoria this sunday otherwise i am going to write to them and complaint. i didnt subscribe to astro five years ago to watch some stupid movies. the only reason was because of the Serie A. forza milan! forza liverpool
oh macbeth! thou show sucks and thee money wasted. sheesh! RM50 was too expensive for such a crummy theater. i should thank diy for helping me stayed awake during the 90-boring-minutes. their voice projection was so lousy, i could hardly understand what they were saying. it's like listening to sir alex ferguson comment after a man united's match. hahaha...
hey! i do know my macbeth and the actor and actress potraying macbeth and lady macbeth didnt do the characters justice. they failed to evoke such hatred and pity in me for their characters. there wasnt enough passion in their acting and the lovely scripts were uttered unconvincingly. however, i like the way they hung the swords above the actors but that was the only impressive backdrop they had. as for the three witches, they had been reduced to one. the girl was more "linda blair's exorcist" than a witch. to each his own i guess.
today is my great colleague and dear friend's last day at the office. he said it was time for him to move on. i wish him luck but at the same time i think it was a big loss to this agency especially my department. To me, he is a brilliant guy who takes his job seriously and with such gusto that i could only dream about. he helped me a lot during my early days here. he is my first gay friend, not that i condone the act but i dont think there is anything i can do to change his sexual-orientation. all i can do is be his friend and he proved to be a good and reliable friend. we have become quite close in such a short time. i know i am going to miss him so much. ciao my friend! take care.
happy birthday to one of the most beautiful and kindest virgos i've ever met. thanks for being my friend liza. we have been celebrating each other's birthday for 18 years now. and the same goes to another beautiful and kind virgo, diy. i dont know how i ended up having two virgos as my closest friends. a piece of advice, dont go shopping with two virgos, they would drive u mad with their fickleness. whatever it is, i love u guys anyway.
aduh, apa ke cipannya budak-budak teknikal ni pergi block semua blog yang ada kat dunia ni. semua discussion forum pun tak boleh nak masuk. aku rasa nasib baik dia orang tak tau kewujudan danchan ni, kalau tak memang dengan danchan2 ni sekali dia orang blocked.
dari minggu lepas aku dah macam orang gila, depress semacam. nak cakap pasal football kat forum pun dah tak boleh, nak baca blog pun tak boleh. tensionnya aku. bukannya aku ada internet kat rumah. kat ofis ni ajelah aku berpeluang melayari internet ni. member-member aku boleh relaks lagi sebab kat rumah dia orang ada line internet. aku dah rasa macam nak hantuk-hantuk kepala kat dinding. teruklah dia orang ni. kalau kau blocked porn site atau game site tu aku paham le tapi blogspot tu apa ke jadahnya. camne ni. sedih betul aku. nak kerja pun aku terus takde mood. elok aku rajin terus jadi malas, patah hati. bodoh betul lah. bukannya kita mengadap baca blog sampai tak buat kerja. kalau aku sibuk memang tak bukak internet langsung, pandailah kita nak balancekan kerja brader.
this is so ridiculous. jumaat maghin, sebab sakit hati sangat, aku terus daftar main football fantasy manager kat espn tu. hah, yang tu boleh pulak bukak. budus. padan muka korang, elok2 aku tak nak main, sekarang aku dah start main balik setelah dua tahun meninggalkannya. aku betul-betul tension tahap dewa ni. aku tak boleh nak menulis dah ni sebab tekanan perasaan. macam mana aku nak baca blog2 yang aku link kan kat blog aku tu. danchan ok tapi blogspot tak boleh. siut betul.
otak aku pun sebenarnya tak berfungsi hari ni. stone giler sebab baru habis edit newsletter. mangkuk ayun mana yang buat translation bahasa malaysia tu. pening kepala aku nak mengeditnya. malam tadi aku dengan diy tengok drama korea memories of bali secara marathon. sampai pukul 3.30 pagi aku dah tak tahan. padahal ada 13 episod lagi tak habis tengok. itu yang aku lalok sikit hari ni ditambah pulak dengan sekatan internet ni. ish! geramnya.
dua minggu lepas aku pergi tengok game milan-ascoli kat sri hartamas dengan penyokong-penyokong milan yang lain. tak ramai sangat tapi aku suka crowd tu dan yang pentingnya jauh dari orang ramai. restoran tu pun cool takde ramai orang. sampai pukul 12 pagi jugak kita orang lepak kat situ bincang pasal fan club. aku harap budak-budak tu berjaya tubuhkan kelab penyokong milan nanti. setakat nak mintak sponsor ngan tulis release, boleh le aku tolong sikit-sikit.
aku dengan diy pergi tengok festival teater kanak-kanak kat mtc. best betul, seronok pulak aku tengok watak-watak hasil gabungan 5 negara. tabiklah kat zahim sebab berjaya koreografkan teater tu dengan baik. budak-budak asuhan fauziah nawi tu pun berjaya menarik perhatian aku dengan aksi kerajaan monyet dia orang. jalan cerita simple jer, pasal environment dan sampah. budak-budak memang patut tengok tu.
jumaat maghin aku, the muse, shar, shah, mr d and mr joe pergi plaza damas untuk lunch. sanggup pergi jauh-jauh tu, mentang2lah hari jumaat. makan kat paddington's pancake sampai nak termuntah2 aku rasa. mau aku tak pergi dah kedai tu setahun. treasure box yang aku makan tu so sinful dengan pancake yang dihiasi aiskrim, sliced banana, strawberry dan bermacam2 buah-buahan lagi. kalau mak aku taulah aku makan lempeng dengan harga yang mahal camtu, mesti kena bebel setahun. bila fikir-fikir balik, dah lama aku tak buat lempeng untuk mak aku. mulalah aku nak emo ni.
aku ponteng kelas lagi sabtu hari tu. lagu lisa loeb - stay tu best cuma sekarang ni aku takde mood nak main. kadang-kadang aje aku praktis lagu tu. aku dengan diy pergi finas sabtu hari tu sebab nak volunteer untuk festival filem hujung bulan ni. tapi aku rasa macam tak boleh nak pergi sebab aku rasa aku kena pergi sabah masa tarikh tu. aiseh, bila aku tak buat apa-apa takdelah pulak event2 macam ni. bila ada semuanya serentak. tapi kalau di bagi pilihan, sama ada nak jadi volunteer kat festival filem atau pergi tengok orang utan dan proboscis monkey, mestilah aku pilih yang the latter tu. lagi pun berkaitan dengan kerja, nak tak nak memang kena pergi. aku pun dah lama tak keluar. asyik pergi event kecik2 kat sekitar kl ni. itu pun aku kata tak mau pergi sarawak pertengahan bulan ni sebab nak pergi sabah. aku harap janganlah tak jadi pulak.
balik dari finas, ingat nak makan kat rebung tapi ada showcase mohram pulak kat situ. last2 aku dengan diy pergi BSC makan kat coca. sedapnya tomyam dia, kalau pedas lagi sikit baru kaw-kaw punya. sebelah coca tu ada actors studio. diy tanya nak tengok teater macbeth tak, aku kata ok aje. dia kata tak nak tengok sunday night sebab ada game arsenal, aku pulak tak nak tengok sabtu malam sebab ada game liverpool. last2 kita nak pergi tengok hari jumaat ni. lepas makan kita orang pergi nilai 3 sebab tolong kawan-kawan diy jual nasi ayam. pukul 10 baru kita orang balik rumah. aku ni walaupun arwah bapak aku dulu berniaga runcit, aku memang tak berminat langsung nak meniaga. mulut berat macam aku ni kalau meniaga memang boleh bankrap, kata mak aku macam ada emas dalam mulut.
aku follow cerita taufan katrina tu dari hari first new orleans kena sampailah sekarang ni. awal-awal aku dah cakap kat diy, mesti bush tu tak ambik pot sangat pasal victim katrina sebab most of them yang stranded tu golongan minoriti. nama ajer negara maju tapi bodoh nak mampus. kau bagi warning suruh keluar sebelum taufan melanda tapi dia orang tu miskin, kereta pun tak ada, macam mana nak pindah. kalau orang-orang muda tu bolehlah. abis yang tua2 dengan budak kecik macam mana. lainlah, kau sediakan bas ke trak ke angkut dia orang tu keluar kan tak jadi macam ni. dia orang tu dah ler ignorant semacam. aku pun tak taulah. selalunya kalau malapetaka2 yang melanda US ni, aku susah sikitlah nak kesian. kesian memanglah kesian tapi aku rasa macam dia orang deserve it sebab dia orang pilih bush tu jadi presiden. tapi sapa pun jadi presiden us agaknya memang cam setan. entahlah, nature's force memang power, lebih power dari bom atom. dia orang tu kalau rakyat dia orang mati dua orang dah kecoh satu dunia tapi rakyat rakyat iraq dengan afghan yang dia orang bunuh beribu-ribu tu macam takde apa jer. tu yang buat aku rasa cam kesian tak kesian jer kat dia orang tu.
owen pergi newcastle, so what? aku yang ralat tu, newcastle dapat luque. budak tu brilliant.
sekarang ni tengah gila tengok Dr House, Wonderfalls dan according to bex. tapi aku rasa sapa yang terfikir nak buat dr house tu memang brilliant. walaupun kengkadang aku pening dengan term2 clinical yang dia orang gunakan tapi kes-kes dia memang best. aku jumpa banyak sangat art films kat satu kedai vcd kat BSC tu tapi satu vcd RM100+++. jadah apa. sebab tulah aku selalu beli art films yang cetak rompak jer, baru RM12. vcd bukak api yang aku edarkan kat kengkawan aku kat ofis ni mendapat reaksi yang berbeza-beza. best gila. semua orang ada pendapat masing-masing mengenai dunia maknyah. siap buat simposium olok-olok kat ofis cerita pasal fasal filem bukak api ni. memang interesting. kata shar yang bukan melayu tu, kalau filem tu keluarkan adegan seks tu, mesti filem tu boleh dijadikan sebagai education film untuk the public. kata shar lagi, public patut tengok cerita tu. aku pun setuju gak. aku tak tau sama ada perlu ker adegan2 seks tu. dia orang tu walaupun maknyah bukan ke islam????
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