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dan jendela pun berbisik...
"Life is not about what you've gained, but what you've done" - Wong Ka Kui (1962 - 1993)
"I disapprove of what you say but I will defend to the death your right to say it" - The Friends of Voltaire, 1906
"A dirty mind is a terrible thing to waste" - Anonymous
"If you read, you will judge" - Kurt Cobain
last modified Mar 17, 2005 at 0:17
aku dapat jemputan daripada rakan2 satu badge masa kat itm dulu untuk pergi bercuti bersama2 bulan februari ni. aku pun serba salah nak pergi ke tak? aku rasa kalau aku join nanti, mesti aku akan rasa macam outsider, out of place macam tu. sebabnya yang pergi tu semua memang group yang memang rapat sesama dia orang.
aku ni bolehlah kalau nak lepak dgn dia orang tapi taklah sekepala sangat. there are a few of them yang aku kagum dan respek dgn bakat yang dia orang ada tapi entahlah. aku tau ada antara dia orang tu pernah cakap aku ni sombong, memilih kawan. aku rasa aku bukanlah sombong, cuma bukan jenis yang suka berkawan sangat. lagi pun group dia orang tu group happening yang selalu buat kecoh kat school. aku pulak tak suka lepak kat school after class. selalunya lepas kelas, aku suka balik bilik tidur. hahaha...
tapi macam seronok juga kalau nak go down memory lane dengan dia orang. oh! lagi satu, dia orang kebanyakan dah kawin, tu yang aku maleh tu. kadang2 aku envy jugak dengan persahabatan dia orang tu, no complications and setia sampai sekarang walaupun mulut masing2 boleh buat kau rasa macam nak menangis, punyalah laser. aku ni pulak, ended up tak rapat dengan siapa2 pun yang sama badge dgn aku. nasib baik ada liza, kinead and supik, kawan2 sekolah menengah yang memang rapat dan setia walaupun pernah bergaduh macam nak rak tapi persahabatan kita orang tetap utuh.
aku pun tak tau kenapa tak boleh nak campur sangat dengan budak2 tu. some of them memang cool dan selamba tapi aku tetap tak boleh nak hang out dengan dia orang. maybe aku ni yang bermasalah. tapi entah kenapa, aku teringin sangat pulak nak join gathering kali ni. let's wait and see lah.
jumaat minggu lepas, aku dah bersiap sedia nak pergi jemput mak aku kat airport. masuk kereta aku pun start engine, alih-alih kereta tak boleh start. aku pun apa lagi, panikle. cepat2 tepon liza, suruh dia tanya staff dia problem kereta aku. staff dia kata bateri kereta aku dah kong. aiseh, dalam banyak2 hari, kenapalah hari mak aku balik haji tulah bateri tu buat hal.
telefon hotline perodua, dia orang kata kena tow dulu kereta. gila apa, aku nak cepat pergi airport, takde masa nak tow2. last2 ada sorang mamat tu yang sudi hantar aku pergi kedai kereta kat kerinchi untuk beli bateri dan siap hantar aku pergi keluar duit kat atm machine. baiknya dia, thanks Lan. lepas brother kedai tu pasangkan bateri terus aku pecut ke airport. nasib baik mak ngan abang aku lambat kuar jadi sempat le aku tunggu dia orang.
alhamdulillah, mak, abang dan kakak ipar aku sihat2 ajer. aku peluk dia orang semua erat2 sangat. pastu ada makcik yang aku tak kenal pun datang peluk aku beriya2. dalam terkejut tu aku pun peluk aje lah balik. ambik berkat kata orang. cutelah makcik tu.
kita orang semua berkumpul kat rumah seremban, dengarlah cerita2 mak aku dan pengalaman dia mengerjakan haji dalam usia 75 tahun. memang mak aku tu cool dan tabah gila. respek sangat dengan semangat dia walaupun tak berapa kuat dah kudrat yang ada. aku sayang gila kat dia, gendon pun macam nak lepas rindu kat mak aku, asyik menggesel je kat kaki orang tua tu.
kita orang buat kenduri kesyukuran hari ahad tu. ramai jugak orang datang. best friend mak aku a.k.a. jiran depan rumah kita orang tak sabar2 nak jumpa mak aku. dia kata selalu mimpi mak aku. ish! lebih2 pulak makcik ni. hahaha...asalnya, mak aku ada dua best friend. dua-dua jiran depan rumah. seingat aku, masa aku lahir, tahun 70-an dululah kan, dia orang tu dah ada duduk kat situ. kawan baik mak aku yang lagi sorang dah meninggal tahun lepas. makcik minah tu pun rapat dengan keluarga aku sampai pagi raya pun dia nak beraya kat rumah kita orang padahal, anak beranak, cucu cicit dia ada kat rumah. kadang2 rasa macam ada dua emak pulak.
liza ngan supik pun datang kenduri kat rumah aku. kinead takde sebab pergi bercuti kat hong kong. masa tengah makan tu sempat kita orang bincang pasal cuti bulan april nanti. kita orang akan ke indonesia lagi tahun ni. tiket semua aku dah book minggu lepas. aku siap cakap awal2 dengan bos, bulan empat tak boleh kacau schedule cuti aku. hahaha...kita orang bertiga plan baik punya, yalah tak nak jadi macam cuti kat singapura tahun lepas. aku dengan liza, masing-masing pakai duit sampai tak ingat, dia pakai duit aku berapa, aku pakai duit dia berapa especially yang melibatkan pengangkutan. itu pun nasib baik penginapan free dan all the animal parks pun free guna cousin aku punya free pass. last2 kita orang dua orang main halal2 ajelah.
kali ni tak, duit pengangkutan, duit makan dan duit hotel, kena simpan dari sekarang lepas tu asingkan daripada perbelanjaan lain. kiranya macam tabung khas le. so tak jadilah nak pergi bercuti kat pulau2 sebab nak simpan duit. hahaha....
kawan aku yang sorang tu pulak ajak backpack six months kat india. gila apa! dia sanggup berhenti kerja untuk backpack ke sana. aku wish aku boleh jadi free macam tu. just chuck everything and go backpacking tapi komitmen banyak babe.
patutnya aku outstation ke langkawi weekend ni tapi bos aku tak kasik keluar sebab keja banyak. ish! tengok itinerary macam best, pergi pulau payar dan almost cover everything kat langkawi tu. nyampahnya aku.
januari dah nak abis tapi i am chained to the desk. aku boleh jadi gila macam ni. i need to get out of the office. i need to travel...
i am a total failure when it comes to fulfill a new year resolution. i am still the world's biggest procrastinator, hardly visited the gym, still a couch potato and the list continued...
i hope in 2008, i will change my life for the better. i want to be a better person, a better friend, a better daughter, a better aunt and a better government officer. hahaha..yeah right! it is only the seventh day of the new year and i've already started to whine about the workloads. seriously, rasa nak pecah dada. i can feel the pressure already, and they said government officer kerja goyang kaki ajer. what a BS.
one thing that i really want to do is to keep writing in this blog no matter how busy i am. right now, i am supposed to write an article on penang national park. how am i supposed to write it with conviction if i have not even been there in the first place. so, instead of doing the assignment, i end up writing in my blog. hahaha...masa kat tempat kerja lama, i'd lots and lots of free times where my colleagues and i would spend half the day playing bookworms and competing against each other. those were the days. here, even if the technical department didnt block the online games, we wouldn't even have the time to play. sighh!
anyway, it's still another two long weeks before my mom and my brother return from madinah after performing their haj. i miss them so much. God! i really really miss my mom.
31st december saw the muse given birth to a healthy baby boy who is so cute. oh my God! he will be a handsome man one day, i swear. he has japanese eyes and straight nose. phew. he reminded me of ando from the japanese series Unfair. hahaha...we all went to the hospital for a surprise visit last monday. im so happy for her. Lucky for her, the baby boy doesn’t look like ponnette after I forced her to watch the French movie so that her baby will be as cute as ponnette. Haha…
on the first day of 2008, supik (who came all the way from seremban) and i went to bukit bintang for a little bit of shopping. We went as early as possible to avoid the crowds. i wanted to go to my favourite shoe shop, Blay. i bought two pair of shoes, a high-heel and a sandal. supik also bought the same sandal. i always love Blay. the shoes are unique and comfortable too but a little expensive. it has another shop in mid valley but the designs there sucks.
we went to pavilion to check out the place and then we realised that both of us were not really into window shopping. from there, we went all the way to bangsar shopping centre to have lunch at Chillies. that's the only place i knew that wasnt as crowded as klcc and mid valley. we sat there for almost two hours trying to finish our mushroom jack and mesquite chicken salad. bloody delicious.
then, we went to amcorp mall to search for cheap books at the payless bookshop there. We found out that the books there werent so cheap after all. After that, we decided to go to our old haunt, kedai buku uncle kat central market. and much to our surprise, the books there were all new. where have all the yellowish, dogeared books gone? we were so sad. so much have changed around us and we didnt even aware of them. it was almost 7pm by the time we finished our "kl shopping tour'. hehehe... we return to my house for a rest before going back to seremban. i had taken the day off on the 2nd of jan.
that night in my room, both of us look at the 2008 calendar and started to plan our holiday. we planned to have a holiday together or with liza (if she can make it) every month. this year, our theme will be islands and we will start with my mystery island in mersing this january. we only planned up until june for obvious reasons. unfortunately for me, jobs always come first. So, we have to scratch the plan for january because i'll be so busy until the end of the month. sorry supik, i'll make it up to you later, ok. i hope the rest of our plan will menjadi. insyaAllah.
i've watched atonement. i was already half in love with james mcavoy. hahaha...it's a great film but i dont know whether i want to read the novel of the same name. it's too sad.
last night, i watched the game between liverpool and luton. it was just so disheartening to watch your team played badly game after game after game. what's wrong with this team? i really wanted rafa to at least stick to the same first eleven in every game for at least 10 games and if it didnt work out, then i'll admit that you have the better understanding of your team. why must you rotate your players. when will the team get to gel together if you always change your first 11. and the worst thing was rafa benitez is a delusional manager. he really believes that his second team is good enough to beat the minnows from other leagues. the bloody team couldnt even beat luton for god's sake and to rub salt into the wound, riise scored an own goal. what a way to welcome the new year man!
i mean i can forgive you guys for the draw against city last week because i already know how sven goran played his game, i watched him coached lazio for years and i think i understand him better than you ever did, benitez. but still, liverpool players werent creative and intelligent enough to break down the defense that sven has built around the manchester city team. even though i hate to watch man city played negatively but you have to admit, their defense was really beautiful to watch. At this rate, i have to finally admit that we are out of the contention to win the premier league this season.
welcome alexander pato! i couldnt wait to watch your performance with ac milan. we, the fans have been waiting for so long to watch you play. maybe you can help put milan in a better position from the current 12th place. if they asked me, i'll tell them to get rid of carlo ancelotti. he has run out of ideas man! ac milan is a predictable team, at least in serie a, that is. get rid of dida, buy zambrotta and try to get sebastian frey to replace dida if you can. i dont know why you bought kalac all those years ago. this team need a thorough facelift and make it quick before they lose Kaka to other greedy teams.
i havent got a gym partner since the muse got married. without a buddy system, it was difficult for me to go to the gym regularly. the muse and i used to force and support each other to go to the gym but now, i have to force myself to go and i always ended up going home instead of the nearby gym even though i carried the gym bag with me. how pathetic. well, starting from today, i will try to go to the gym regularly even though i have to go through the torment (not the exercise, the football jeers from the MU fans). sungguh! aku sungguh!
God! i cant believe i have spent half a day writing all these nonsense. now, i better stop and concentrate on my other article, the one that help pays the bills. hehehe....
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