Not everyone is meant to make a difference..
Well this weekend has officially been very tiring.. Not from doing much but the emotional stress I suppose? There seems to be something wrong with my family, everyone is either suffering from depression, some kind of disease, and the small percentage of us are actually happy.. Even the ones that seem like there happy.. one minute there smiling, the other there buried 6 feet under..
Another one bites the dust
I'm not really emo, or even slightly upset.. Just makes me think alot, that's all. Is it wrong to not be sad in a situation like this one? Instead of spending time with my family and help them cope, I sit at home with a friend or two playing Halo 2? I don't know, my mother seems to think so. The disapointment sound in her voice..
"So.. your not going to come to see the family with me?" .. "no.. everyone is depressed, i don't need to be around that..." .. "Okay, See you later"
Meh.. Well, Chris is comming over.. This is gona boost my energy level, Tootles everyone.
If it helps, I have the same issue but with even less excuse... I feel like I avoid spending time with my family even when times are great, and I find myself silently complaining to myself when asked to watch the kids when I was quite content playing guitar downstairs. Don't stress yourself out thinking about it too much, k? I'm the one who should rethink my attitude first *L*. Later days.
If being around your family right now would make you emo, then its perfectly okay for you to want to stay at home. Different people grieve in different ways, so you should be allowed to vent your thoughts via video games.....
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