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been trough a lot of involuntary travel to old time
time that i dont want to remember
i guess i supressed them so long
now they resurfaced
i've been having nightmare for several days now
really bad nightmare that left me crying in my sleep
i guess the nightmare is the manifestation of my childhood
oh i hate my childhood
i wish my mom did not send me to the piano lesson
i wish my father's side of family is not notorious as they are now
i wish i'm not who i am then
i hate that time so much, i dont want to remember anything about it
my bf know im sooo uncomfortable talking bout my childhood
to the level i cried when he asked me about it
no, im not molested or anything like that
i think me being a prodigy got to do with my act then
really, when all the bad things resurfaced
i woke up trembling
four nightmare in 2 days
beat that
usually i forget all my dream
but not the nightmare
it'll linger troughout the day
and being alone right now doesnt help at all
i hate my childhood
last modified Oct 17, 2005 at 22:19
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