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something ordinary
last modified Sep 4, 2004 at 7:15
hmmmm
feeling so bored
yesterday spend my time going to gym
after a semester long not exercising
i feel good again
gain some weight (again!!) during the holiday
damn it!!!
so i have another 4 month lo lose weight
hmmm semalam mimpi pelik
very very weird
mimpi yg sangat geli and i dont even want to think about it
argghhhh but it stuck in my head
bombastic word cant get you anywhere!
spend my money again
i can say im a good cook
but my bf dont believe me huh
well i never cook for him except for cheese cake
so he dont really know how lucky he is to have me!
among heavy task that i've accomplished in cooking
-new york style cheese cake
-sambal nasi lemak (the perfect one: have belacan and asam jawa)
-nasi ayam malay style
-nasi ayam hokkien style
-variety of desert
-black pepper (this is my specialty)
-umai (sarawak's traditional dishes)
things i want to learn to cook
-kari ayam (i always failed to cook curry with perfect brownish-orange color)
-traditional malay dishes esp rendang and nasi beriyani
-roti canai
-kuah kacang yg tak hangit
heh
what makes me wanna talk about cooking?
everyone is praising my desert 
hehehehhe
so need to riak for a moment
well
he hasnt called yet
arghhhhh
i hate watching "perfect proposal"
it makes me cry!!!
its let me know there's romantic guys out there
and they're not for me!
damn!!
yeahhhh
he havent called me yet
im getting mushy!!!!
warghhhhh
cant take this anymore
this is what happen when there's holiday
and he's not here
i just want to lean my head on his shoulder
and talk until the moon emerges and sun rises
there's so much this happen this fall
and i want him to hear it all
hmmmmm
right now
i feel everything is wrong with our relationship
are we really destined to be together?
but i cant even think what will happened if i dont have him
i really cant
cause im what he is
and i really need him
in my life
damn this weather
it make me mushy
feeling like bashing people right now
i dont know who'll be my victim next
but so tired to do so....
should've go movie hopping today
but there's no bus during christmas day
if not....for 10 bucks i can see 10 movies (illegally wahahhaha)
well i ended up resting in my room and cuddling inside my comforter
watching the snow outside my window
yeah...its white chrismas
im so amazed because on christmas eve there's only tiny flurry outside
but when i woke up the whole world outside turn white
when sledging at noon
when done i freak out to see my red cold feet
seems like being attacked by some animal
cooked some cheesecake
and somebody's else cooked me dinner
waaaahhhhhh
seems like a fun holiday....NOT!!!!
im so bored right now
im so lovesick
im so pissed off cause he havent called me yet
im so not in the mood
i hate this
please please darling please call me NOW!!!
really want to talk to you
really want to gossiping with you
just let me hear your voice
im need you right now
im so vulnerable
one pinch and i'll cry
if you dont call me NOW!!
im sounding like a lovesick puppy
ultimately have been 2 weeks since he last called me
i hate it so much for being so lovesick right now
just wanna hear his voice
pleaseee darling called me now
wanna know a verrryyyyy gooood news?
yeah baby
i excel this semester!!!
i got 3.3 this sem
compare to 3.0 last winter
i finally take my CGPA above 3
yea yea
i wanna dance RIGHT NOW!!
who want to celebrate with me?
i hope i can make it through next sem
i already got the present
the brand new laptop and brand new camera
yeah...watched ROTK few nights ago
yeah...it was a blast and worth your money
but after all i love the 2nd movie the best
maybe because the 3rd one you dont have any expectation
yeah...just wait for the DVD
because they cut the part where aragorn took the black ship from bad people
make sure you buy the extended version
and for me
hell yeaaahhh
im gonna buy the box set as soon as it comes out
deadline in 3.30 hrs
then im totally FREE!!!!
yah yah
malaysian people are sick!!!
im feeling so mad to come across loser people on the net
yeah...porn stories are all fake
so take your fucking lie somewhere else
life dont need more loser in this life
to all malay porn story teller out there
you guy suck big time!
no wonder you guy will never own a big house
and a nice car
maybe dont even have money to get married
loser!
and i hope you will scrap your food off the ground...FOREVER!!
and to others....dont let porn as one of "regular" things
i live in a place where flashing your boobs is not a taboo
with tv full with stuff that you shouldnt let your kid see
and i also live in the place where everything is sick
rape, abuse, murder
that is the thing that already creeping in my country
and im entirely sad about it
afraid to say
what will happen to my life later
my 16 years old cousin already has out-of-wedlock child
shame on you
konon2nya happening lepak kat Bangsar
sambil hisap shisha
sabil teguk arak
sambil raba2
woi kalo setakat beli baju branded pakai duit mak bapak boleh blah laaa
setakat keta evo ko tuh bapak ko bayar down payment
go to hell laaaa
serius orang yang camtuh bodoh
yang tak layak pun masuk univ tempatan
tak payah cerita laa nak gi oversea kena sponsor
tuh yang ramai "konon2nya happening" people ended up kat private u
sbb ko bodoh!
mmg sick ah
no need to comment more
if you clever enough to read in english
you should clever enough to differentiate what is good to your life
im mad?
yes totally
arghhh takyah sebut pasal mentaliti
because you dont even understand what that mean
i just something to change for better
not even worse
maybe im just being an idealist
but hey...my name is utopia, remember?!
arghhhh
im supposed to be happy
since final is over
but i was so mad at the exam
it is so hard that i feel helpless
well....one semester is over
i cant wait to go through one more semester
and i'll going back home!!
arghhh!!!!
fuck up my exam!!!!
TAKUTNYA.....
got examS tomorrow
please2 let me pass this time
want to call my mom tomorrow morning
Saddam has been captured alive
so US soldiers...get your butt off Iraq!!
well...maybe i feel better if saddam is dead
i mean i dont have to think about what people will do to him
and he looks so vulnerable
i feel like hugging him and tell him that everything will be alright
but at the same time i feel mad for his ignorance and such
yeah...i definitely will feel better
and maybe dont even care
if he dead
ok
skang nih ada can nak dapat more than 3.5
it depends on me now
my instructor promises to give me an A if i get 100 for the test...
and my paper pon going well
so hows now?
i need prayer from all of you
my fellow friends
doakan my strength to go on with studying
doakan agar terang hati baca buku
please2 i really hope i can do well this time
i dont want to mess up anymore
wish me luck
he called
and i must cry in the end
feeling good
almost finished with content of my paper
im sure im gonna make a good paper
which will help me to get an A
what else
i have started the practice exam
i hope i can do well too in chem
hmmmm
what else
feeling sooo hungry
2nd day of qada-fasting
waiting for the pizza right now
exams totally ruins my diet!!
performed really badly in chem exam
i dunno
maybe the incident affect me somehow
but the heck
should blame myself
really really need to vent out the anger about the test
the low mark really dragging me down
now im not sure if i can get good mark or not in the final
i supposed to get 20 mark more
but I DIDNT READ THE QUESTION PROPERLY
thought im so clever
but im just plain stupid
please please gimme strength to go through final exam
please please
last night really cant sleep
all the sudden i cry again after recalling back what had happened in workplace
if only i have strength to fight back
but i dont want to make a scene
and i know he got a lot of ppl supporting him
damn him!!
i hope he got into accident
or some alien stabbed him to death
finals in one weeks and half
focusing on my essay mostly because it'll be my A
if i do it right
exams=eat more!!!
pissed off at workplace just now
sampai nangis2
omputih mmg sial ah
totally hooked up on the nickelback's vid Someday
(go see it on yahoo launch incase you cant download it)
its about this two couple fighting over some articles in newspaper
the girl is crying and stormed out from the room
leaving the man behind
then the girl go driving and the man is chasing her on feet
suddenly the girl was hit by a truck (damn it!! i was so shocked!!)
and the man saw the whole thing
and then in midst of the commotion
the girl's spirit meet the man and they hugged each other
i was so puzzled at this moment
and then suddenly it shows what is the article is all about
"a man died in the tragic tragedy"
the man has died....and now the women dies
and they reunited
that is the most romantic rock video i ever see
i like it
i like it
not the song but the vid
orait enough crap
need to finish my essay
in the midst of doing my essay
have to finish it by tomorrow
unproductive day
finals in a weeks and half
damn i feel so not confident
wanna ace this semester
as usual
i know will not able to make it to 4 flat
duh!!
have a nice schedule next semester
although took many classes than usual
i hope i can cope with it
adeh
i already feel the stress of final exam
one ulcer has grown in my mouth
ulcer=stress right?
right now i have completely avoided carbonate drink
and even high sugar content drink
feel hard at first
because coca-cola is my caffeine source
now have tried to drink milk
buy by gallon right now
not just one pint
and maybe after exam
wanna try the protein diet
just wanna get some figure
and then slowly creep in some veggie
warghhhh
being healthy is so painful
reflecting the day of my "unhealthy" life
pizza-doritos-coke-cheetos-bagel
that's my daily menu
being good is hard right?
one hurdle pass
but not sure it its down or not
now have to concentrate on my research paper
one week deadline
feeling a lil bit weird today
dont feel right
i dunno what/why bothering me
and i dont think the exam
been taking a long breath since on the bus
im not sure
so weird
is he ok?
well
feeling like bitching today
a lot a lot of things to bitch about
-cruel weather
spend my day cursing when walking to class today
damn it
the wind is so cold make me crying all the way to the class
of course with full-blown cussing
cakap 4 degree
tp rasa nak mati dah ni
damn it laaa
-watching cinta kolesterol make me wanna scream and punch yusry's face
woiii aku balik dari US pon takde masa nak pakai muffler kat klia
stoooopppppiiiiddddd laaaaa
pleaseeeee be realistic
very2 shallow story
and why the fat erra have to be so retarded
hello....im overweight too and im not that retarded
make me wanna puke seeing erra that way....so mentally handicapped
its like saying that its ok for you to fall in love with mentally retarded person
than an overweight person
fuck up punya cerita
my fault wanna give the story a chance
and see it
but damn it
i rather running out naked in the snow
than watching it and puking all over
-faizal hussein kicks ass!!
where is he now?
-the more people you know, the more dosa u get
i tried to befriended a lot of ppl and im ended up bitching about each of them
damn it
a lot of friend make you wanna "ngumpat" all of them
sorry beb
i rather be a lone ranger again
than be in your circle of fuck-up friends
well have a lot of things to say actually but my fingers sore from the cold weather outside
till next time
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