something ordinary

last modified Sep 4, 2004 at 7:15

just finished showering...damn..that dove body cleanser stinks big time!!! literally!! it my mistake for taking the big bottle before sniffing at it first....wonder why the Dove in malaysia smells lot nicer?! yuck!! yuck!! nasib baik ada sepeket protex belakang cermin..but hate the soap bar too....it make my skins dry...waaaa...i want my spring-scented Dial back....apsal cepat sangat abis...
hmmmm ader exam but cant focus...maybe because today is Friday ? Hmmm...my rumet baru balik dari dinner and she's look like heading to party after this...bahagia syal hidup tak terikat ngan sponsor....u can decide yourselve nak belajo ker tak....especially when your status is UNDECIDED...urghhhhhhh focus-focus
read one awesome(is that the right word?)...angry girl in the same time got the ladies thing inside...hmmm no need to mention here...feel like want to enjoy it for myself first!

hooked up with matchbox 20 : unwell
comment: cool song...love the way rob appears in the vid...its make the mtv cuter

59235 | posted by utopia at 21:13 | 0 comments

dont feel like talking today...shit! i hate it when im got to study for 2 exam in the same week ...its make me tense!!! hate the pressure...
today is a good day actually...got back my DE paper and i got more than i expected...its B+ !! and i just had my appointment with my GSI today and in just one hour i understand that crappy chemistry chapters
but why im not enjoying it? Maybe cause i feel bloated? or am i just being grumpy...really fucked up and i guess this feeling will lasted for hmmmm maybe a week
2 tylenol and a cup of caramel frappucino : got to get rid of this sleepiness

59010 | posted by utopia at 21:24 | 0 comments

ok im trying to sound more rational this time.In fact,im totally pissed off by someone today.Hate to say, this is the 2nd time in a row i mad at her. Maybe it my fault,,,but being angry is just the only thing i can do.I'm not as verbal as some other people. Maybe i can consider myself as "soft" person and that's cost me a lot. My weakness is to say the small word NO. I hate it! That's why i kept helping other people but how bout those people that i help. Call me "tak ikhlas" but someone has to give and take right!
so pissed of...i slept until 9 just now..so pissed off and HE STILL HAVENT CALLED ME YET!

just one advice i got for all of you outside :: whenever you ever ask for help from someone....please ... please remember what they have done to you and pleaseeeee dont take those for granted!

58872 | posted by utopia at 21:40 | 0 comments

tension!!!!!

babi suma orang!!! ada member cam sial jer...suma cam babi suma...ntahpaper...bengang siot kalo mintak tolong bukan main...kalo aku mintak tolong jangan harap ah nak tolong cam sial jerl...suma fucker!!! babi tol!!!! sial sial sial....
suma hipokrit cam taik...tau nak guna member tapi tak reti nak balas balik cam sial babi babi!!!!!!!!!!!!!

58824 | posted by utopia at 15:51 | 2 comments

i think im paranoid...i just put all my so-called-important stuff in my blue plastic box.my pasport, alcohol prep. Advil liquid-gel , vicks nyquil , baby talc(in case i cant take bath and im smelly!), deodorant, my spare spectacle , toothpaste (hmmm remind me to buy tooth brush later) my insurance card , bar soap , toothpicks (?)
yes...im so paranoid with all this war agains Iraq and i hate it...simply because i cant concentrate on anything. I hate war..but i cant do nothing to stop it..because im just a little voice....
all i really think right now is i hope i did not need to carry those stuff away with me....
now im ready....and im still paranoid!

58553 | posted by utopia at 0:14 | 0 comments

hard thumping in my head feel like crying i hate it i hate this burden inside me i hate me

58157 | posted by utopia at 0:53 | 0 comments

looking for yesterday

Beatles
Yesterday

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly, I'm not half to man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she had to go I don't know she woldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm.

feel so low right now..feel so damn low!

58143 | posted by utopia at 0:12 | 0 comments

money!!!i need money!!!!

arghhhhhh! i hate it when i have debt to pay. I ow my university about 940 dollars and i cant pay it now...i dun have such money to pay i hate it!!!urghhhh when can i have my old debt-free life again?

57116 | posted by utopia at 1:56 | 1 comments

clueless

hmmm...really cant understand myself. i got an exam next week and until right now i didnt do any revision... i mean im here at my desk trying to study but in the end i was lured into the "the devil of machine":this computer
warghhhhhh missing my man...cant wait to talk to him...
im suck i know but you sucks more!

57106 | posted by utopia at 0:02 | 1 comments

simplicity is the best....

56736 | posted by utopia at 19:24 | 0 comments