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something ordinary
last modified Sep 4, 2004 at 7:15
omigosh
i cant emphasizes how spring really effect my purse
all the spring collection is out!!
cropped pant from GAP
spring dresses from Oldnavy
skirt from UrbanOutfitters
o yeah dont forget the ultimate accessories of the year
your Miracle Bra Bikini from Victoria Secret
ahhh
aint you glad you're a woman
everything is dedicated to you
and everything that is dedicated to you will hopefully be under the budget of Mr Boyfriend
pleaseeeee huneyyyy me want that skirrrtttttt.....
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damnit!!
its so cold outside
when will i be able to wear my new dress!!!!!?????
shopping definitely the best things to do in the world
what is more fun that spreading your money away without feel guilty?
plus you have that beautiful clothes (awwww~) in exchange
hah
i need more money to enjoy life
:P
what a loser?
dah kalah baru cakap rela menang prinsip dari menang kerusi whatsofuckingever
hah masa bertanding dulu macam sial..
siap yakin satu malaysia takkan sokomng BN
bullshit!
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ahhhh~~
spring is in the air
wanna go and buy myself a nice thing
shoes maybe
or new clothes
hahaha
i love spring
and winter
i hate fall because its such a sad season
and summer
because the heat for sure dumb-ass
ahhh
spring is in the air
the tulip has started to grow you see
its such a beautiful scenery
its been proved through my experience
gangster kat skolah always budak rendah iq atau budak gay (but always dissing pondan)
i dunno why these people are sooooo proud that they bulied other weak people (which usually quiet and smart)
what an asshole!!
ahhhhh babih ah
ragging pon janganlaaa bunuh orang mofo!!
buy ur own kettle mr fuckup
nama skolah agama
but you cant even follow a simple rule!!!
fuck the school that allowed this thing to happen!!
this make me wanna stay in US and homeschooled my own children
im so enraged with this people
they are such an asshole
melayu will never change FOR GOOD!!!!EVER!!
and to people that once bullied me which i never remember their name
1.he stole my bike's wheel and punched my cousin :now in jail for raping a school children
2. my own cousin who always steal from my granma house, tried to bully me but i reported to my father. i dunno what my father did, but he never ever touched me and my siblings: now in jail too , stealing someone's bike
3. a girl who doing something so bad i will never forgive her to death: dapat anak luar nikah and her husband just a peon or mechanic (and totally not handsome at all)
as for me, i definitely grow up with mind of my own, will definitely have a good life, currently own a perfect boyfriend
i dont bully and i dont resort to violent
and fuck you to whoever did
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i should move out to Ireland instead
its a no smoking country!!!!
yeah its monday
and my exam is today
no biggie
if i study harder
there's no guarantee i get better result
well whatever
in two weeks:::my anniv with him
yeay!!
cant believe after 19 month not seeing each other
we still go strong
hahahahahha
oh yeahhhh
im on long distance relationship
and its still not shaken yet
you're friend just a natural fuckup if he blames girl for a break up
if he see something that he shouldnt see
why dont he come out and face the girl for whatever reason
or better yet
save the girl if the girl doing wrong
ahhhh
man is soooooo predictable
whatevaa
uuuuu
im in US dude
much much much more reason to be nasty than being in "utara"
oh fuck it
and i have 3 friends who are in long-distance rship
hell yeah your friend got problem
well
life aint easy
so dont make it harder
hah people bashing feel sooo good!!
aah!
just realized i got exam this Monday
i hope i dont forget to go to class
its been like 3 weeks since i go to that particular lecture
its sooo boring
and i just dont like it!
just hoping for the best
whatevaaa
well shouldnt befriend to ppl that smoke
they just fucking smelly and stupid
ok im done with all food craving
now its time to start all over again
o yeah got tonnes of hw to submit by tomorrow
but others thing is much much fun than doing hw
and with sunshine outside
who cares about sitting alone in your room
come out and PLAY!
oh i should have stop eating
i just cant control myself
should stay away from the rice too
and the pita bread
im just such a pig!!
right now try to finish dan brown's angel or demon
fact from the book
-assasin come from arab word Hassasin (i havent checked this one out)
-the true bible is still in Vatican library, i guess that's the one that say something about our prophet...however the lib is stictly no access to commoner
-all renaissance artwork reflects either sercret brotherhood to challenge Cristianity (i've check on this one)
one things that worth telling
Terrorism is not a way to show strength, nor religiously motivated...but terrorism just a way to create terror and fear. Aint fear is our greatest weakness..(for muslim simply put fear of God)
yeah so to u all book junkie out there
dan brown;s just worth your money...
esp if you're curious about the fulfillment of renaissance art.
I wonder if Malaysian art convey any secret brotherhood or have some encrypted message??
woke up to his call today
he just too cute to resist
and now 7am in the morning
i cant sleep
ahhhh
i miss him so much
so much it hurts
come on time!!
go away fast
i want to meet him as soon as possible
right now all i can think
is to sleep all day(and nite) long and only wake up for 2 hrs each day
and by the 120th hrs i wake up
he is already beside me
i miss him
just plain miss him
and anticipated for our first day after 2 years
:P
sadly
have to order my weezer's stuff from amazon instead buying it from Borders.
Its just too much difference in price
so being the cheap skate i am, i rather wait a week for the cds
well feel so lazy today
in fact been feeling lazy for what?
12 days already
go to swim but still dont got the energy
at least feel like eating
stuff to do
-appt for fall advising
-2 homework due friday
-start studying for physics exam next two week
darling gonna start going abroad again
hmmmmm
gonna miss his early call
and his late night call
well im gonna meet him this summer
yeay!!!!!!!!
planned a lot of stuff
but both knows that we better off spend times hunting cheese cakes than travelling
or cuddling
or cheese cake while cuddling
hahahahahhaha
well....
look forward to see my honey again
its all that i think of right now
who cares bout studying if life is much much fun with him 
sedihnyaaaa
just found out all my classmates is 2 years younger than me
and dor sure zillion more smarter than me
i feel so old!!
and sooooo stupid
well at this mo
dont feel like studying
feel like slumping in bed, watch the cloud
(hahahahah i sound like shikamaru-chan~)
what a life
but of course i cant afford that
ahh then again
watching cloud is much more fun than studying
waaahhhh
im so hype right now!!
WEEZER dvd's and cd finally out today!!!
will definitely go to the Borders to check out the cd this afternoon!!
well just found out that OAG'a album is on Amazon.com
how cool is that?
ahhh i always has this admiration to artist from Sarawak
yeah...a lil bit biased over there cause im Sarawakian
but the truth is they never failed me
Whether Radhi or Nice Stupid Playground
Dayang Nurfaizah too
i just love em all
Kuching's underground definitely the best
comparable to Ipoh UG scene
just i guess im lil bit older and wiser now
should not go to all those places again
aahhh i miss home
im gonna go back this summer
just wait for me will ya people
my mom call
that's mean i did it again
didnt contact home by any mean for more than a month
bad daughter
bad daughter
hahahahaha
well at least i didnt ask for money
still waiting for him to call
yah he says sorry after i said i'll cut my hair short
hahahhaha
one more thing
ek elaaaa ko dah kalah baik ko buat kalah cara terhormat
i dun have any respect for those that cakap pilihanraya tak betul laaa
hey man...ko dah kalah so please please take you friggin ego somewhere else
sapa suruh bodoh!!
YEAH IN YOUR FACE!
ko nak tuhan tunjukkan kebenaran ke?
bukan tuhan tgh tunjuk ke skarang?
what happened is HIS will right?
and now BN menang on HIS will right?
apsal ko takleh tgk2 lagi...
oh maybe your definition of kebenaran is tuhan kasi govt kat parti kau ke?
if that so...
world is always without truth
i dont need to deduce more
3/32
weezer new dvd "new capture device"
weezer the blue album:deluxe edition
get those two as soon as possible
a must for weezer hard-core fan like me
he did it again
i hate him for that :(
you have been proved wrong
BN just take Tganu away
and im happy
i'll always live happily ever after
woi kawan pon ko nak makan ke?
omg
i cant believe this is happening to me
somebody just "eat me alive"
and didnt feel sorry for that
what is happening to you mofo?
dah ah duduk us
takkan ko sesama melayu pun nak khianat ke?
gile fucker ah!!
altho its just small thing
its definitely gonna lead to something else
what a freaking fucking people are you?
damn it!
im seriously gonna stay away from you
blog-hopping is not good
esp when during voting season
aahhhh im just pissed off at those that's too stupid to look at other perspective
i've my own believe
and i also know you have your own perspective
but if you can spend hours to show that you're right and other people are wrong
why dont u take one fucking minute to think about what others have to say
why is it wrong if he used hadith to support BN
and what's make it right for you to use quranic verse to support PAS
who cares if he want PAS candidate to win in his place
who give a damn if he like to have BN person to take back Ktan
and nobody give a shit if he still want govt to release Anwar Ibrahim
nobody give a friggin' care about what you think what you want what you care
nobody!
are you too wimp to admit other's advantage, to admit that your wrong?
gosh! you really need to people to say you're right aint ya?
aahhh your ego need some stroking i guess
youre so fucking predictable
i have no say on anything about politic
just please dont push others to agree to whatever you said
and please dont be such an egomaniac if they dont
you're no better than me if not weaker
just be reasonable
life aint over if u dont get whatever you want
there still ways u know
just be reasonable aight?
o yeah in case ur asking
even if i got preference in politic
i still cant vote
hah!
havent go swimming for a week now
oh well its a good news for my hair in a way
my baby gonna stay with me next winter
we talked about getting him visa when i go back home this summer
hmmmm
i really love the idea of him go here and stay with me
for the whole winter
with the snow falling
the tendency to cuddled up in front of fireplace
(in my case, a stupid heater)
at least i got someone to tidy up my room
hahahahahhaa
aahhh cant wait for him to graduate
i know he want to stay with me
maybe i should ask my mom permission for me to get married
in case anything happen
(duh...like they'll agreed with the idea)
cant wait
i'll spend summer in malaysia
and he'll spend winter in US
aaahhhhh isnt it heaven?
oohhhh
found a shop that sell Maggie Perasa Kari
aaahhhhhh life is great!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh im so gonna need to tidy up my room tomorrow
aahhh can i have anuar zain singing for me?pleassseeee.....
i've fallen in love with that voice
although i still think he is too gay
omigosh!!!
i want Ning's hair!!!!
the one she do in Juara Lagu
its soooooo nice!
my hair almost that length
aaaaaahhhhhh
I WANT THAT HAIRDO!!!!
and happy first year my blog
i feel so heavy today
a lot of unpleasant thing
the girl that pissed me off
always say something that make me sooooo wanna stangle her to death
you not better than me
so stop bullshitting in front of me
if you got 4 flat then i allow you to say something bullshit in front of me
i dont need demotivator in my life
i dont need another person problem in my life
i have enough and i dont need yours
i just plain hate it if you think that you're doing good
and stop bragging about anything
i hear no bullshit from anyone
who cares you bought a stupid futon
i have new LAPTOP,new CONSOLE
i got 27 in TV,a DVD player, a MD player
and i dont care about your stupid ugly futon
you got nothing
and i have everything
so fuck you
and you aint brighter than me
so stop pissed me off
you just such a freak
i am so so glad i will not see you often anymore
so fuck you!
depressednyaaaaaaa!!
fuck everybody !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wooohhh
how fast time fly
i didnt even feel the 8 hrs i spend in the library to study for my exam tomorrow
i just hope i dont overslept tomorrow
i got back pain
its hurts
i need my baby to massage it for me
speaking of my bf
he told me that the reason he want me to keep my long hair
is he want me to see me to be more girly
hahahhaha
just when i decided to learn how to wear make-up
yeah i decided to be more girly the next time i see him
want to buy a handbag
(o gosh im 21 and never own a handbag!!)
a set of make-up
(o gosh im 21 and dont have even a stick of lipstick)
poor mr boyfriend
i dunno how he cope with un-lady me
well i guess you'll see me more lady-like next time honey :P
aaahhh
feel so lazy too start studying
been playing with staple since i woke up at 12 till now
until there's no paper to be staple
i dunno why i dun feel motivated at all
maybe the thought of going home this summer make me sooooo lazy to go to school
i just need some rest
i need some time for me to pursue things that i really like
such as reading
been abandoned my reading for a long time now
that;s remind me to bring back all my story books home this summer
yeah
im going home
not yet for good
just for 4 month
i want the comfort of home
ive been in dorm too long now
im cant sleep
for some reason Ju on is soooo scary for me
i miss him so much
we ended our phone conversation by yelling at each other
and i go to bed mad
wishing i didnt know him on the first place
wishing that we never exist
wishing for another lover
i feel horrible
6 unanswered call goes by without me touching the phone
i just stared and let the ring off
i feel terrible
this is no good
both for me
for him
this is sooo painful
living so far away from him
cant even hear him daily
i want a boyfriend
that always there for me
doing laundry together
cooking meal together
go shopping together
or at least can plan a date once a week
its been 19 freaking month living all alone
away from each other
yes i do survive
he do survive
we survive
but its such a suffering
my sleep cycle is screwed up!!
i need to study
two exams is coming up this weeks
and i havent studied a single things yet
well well well
im so fucked up
aaahhhh need to sleep
hah
watched ABP-BH online
ella is so cute
and anuar zain is so gay
hahahahahahah
and i still hate nurul for taking ajai away from me!!
AND I WANT FAIZAL HUSSEIN TO WIN!!!!!
hi penbed
i read your blog
hahahaha
it is so unfortunate for you to be in same place with your ex
it must be hard
speaking of ex
its seem i always have someone who is far away from me
im not a good short distance lover
hahahahah
i always do something crazy that i dont want my boy to know
so back to the story of the ex
i am terrible at breaking up
first i would act like nothing happened
and then i started to bugging him to take me back
(and this is also apllied if im the one who breaking up)
then if i was rejected
i will totally act like a jerk
by kept telling him that i already got a nice new guy
altho i dont at the moment
hahahahhaha
im such a terrible person
im so relieved that it is most unlikely for me to bump into my exs
hahahahahah
i feel so stupid for my behavior
i must really really not thinking at that time
well
i just hope my current lover will not breaking up with me
i know if that things happened
i'll be the most childish person he ever met
not too say annoying too
hahahahahhaha
o yeah hellboy and the punisher movie will be out
and i havent see Passion yet
i guess the cough medicine supposed to make me drowsy
but
what the hell am i doing here?
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i cant sleep
so pardon me with all this rambling
im in PMS mode
so whats i wrote down here may or may not be regretted later
gosh i repeatedly said that i hate laki melayu
i just hate them to death
even to see random pic of them can make me puke
urghhhh
my life is soooo surrounded by people that i dont like
i have strong feeling about everything
what i like will be the love of my love
and what not...will forever be not
so are the people im with
i hate her since high school
i realized i still hate her till now
when she's here for road trip from NY
i cant even say hi or say sweet thing
i hate her since the second semester of school
and till today i never see her in the eyes
for the sake of hatred
and she live just next door
i hate them
soo much... i promised myself to married chinese guy when i grow up
my luck i dont have too
i hate them for the smell, for the attitude, for that clothes their wearing
for the social life their having
for everything they do
i just hate them
and this feeling is for real
will never tolerate for anything else
when i hate i'll never like
im sick yet no one attended me
i want my honey!!
where is he when he supposed to change the wet towel over my head?
or spoon me the warm porridge?
or just simply gimme a get-well-soon kiss?
i want my darling!!!!!
been drinking aquafina all days instead of tap water
its all this cough fault!
should've opt for dasani instead (hey...i love my Coke-cola more than Pepsi)
well the cough does not seem to cease
thanks god one of the homework is postponed to Monday
just pray for my well being guys
oh dont forget the two exams next week
uh great! what next?
this cough is killing me!
cant stand the dry cough
its hurts
need to see dr today
if and only if i can stand up and walk
need to stock up on mineral water too
the tap worsen my condition
now...
where did i put my insurance card?
me a crazy shopper
buang duit lagi beli benda bodoh
well i hope i will not get bored with it easily
i cant sleep
totally feel guilty right now
damn sure the next time he called im gonna be bombarded with question
about loyalty
about my promises
:(
im feel so terrible
dont want to create another lie anymore
but i'm cant come out with the truth
i just cant
nobody will understand my reasons
aaahhhh
im such a bad girl
i dunno how to face him
after what i've done
im sorry honey
you will never know my true history
other issue
this is one of the reason why i hate laki melayu
(yeah...i got issue with laki melayu so if you got problem fuck off)
aku sangat pissed of kat sorang laki melayu yang gemuk, hitam dan busuk sebab merokok, perasan hensem tp muka macam cibai,
aku tak kisah orang nak kutuk aku gemuk
in fact i make fun of myself being fat
tp kalo ko gemuk and you're trying to conceal the fact that you're much much fatter than me
by hummiliating me in front of other people
making comment of how fat i am
fuck you!!!
ko pegi dan cermin diri ko dulu
kalo ko hensem sangat awek ko dah keliling pinggang
(and if you dont even have a single girlfriend.....ex-gf pon tarak....i think you should know better how "handsome" you are)
im fat yet i have a lot of boyfriend before
and still have till today
that for sure says that orang lagi interested kat aku dari ko
let me say this to you
the thing that other ppl wont say
ko dah ah tak hensem
gemuk plak tuh
perasan cool konon2 sebab ko merokok
and ko hang out kat tpt yang konon2 cool
and join band yang konon2 cool
tp not a single girl attracted to you
so that;s mean you sucks
so jangan mimpi nak kutuk aku
all you get is two middle finger from me
sbb aku betul dan kau salah
sebab aku gemuk tp cantik
tp kau gemuk dan hodoh
so clean your mouth with soap
go away and fuck yourself sbb takkan ada pompuan yang akan nak kat kau
you're just a perfect example of how asshole laki melayu
and for info, my bf is has mixed blood
have very fair skin
and tall and skinny
and i dare to say dashingly handsome
so if you got issue
just forget it
sebab ko takkan setaraf dengan aku
take my advice fat man
fuck yourself to death
sbb ko tak secool yang ko sangkakan
and i repeat
no girl will attracted to you
(got it? you'll be lonely until the day you die...fat-ass mofo!)
anime: Naruto 73 is out!!
manga: Naruto 207 is out!!!
fuh!
should make this announcement week ago
but i forgot that i've download it
but ive enjoyed every bit of it
hahah
shikamaru just pure genius
i want this!!!!!
alright
got a lot of stuff to do
but im just plain lazy
what's happening to me?
im supposed to be motivated after sequence of failure of my entire first batch of exams
dang!!!
im too absorbed with anything else i guess
like sleeping,
or dieting
or anything else except for studying
i wish i depressed
so that i'll stick my nose on those texts
but im content with what i do right now
except for my study of course
im lacking of motivation
i've achieved the grade that i want last sem
now i have nothing to look up at
dang!!!!!
i miss you so much my darling
aaahhhh
he called
and im so in love with this guy
i miss you
i think he is abusive
but in front of me he never even raise his voice
but im scared of him whenever he called
because his word is strong
and he's full with negative emotion
yet he's so charming whenever im visibly around him
i dunno
this may be the best decision of my life
or the biggest mistake of mine
i never see my man in beard and moustache
today i received his pics
noticed the rugged look of his face
little hint of moustache and this shadow of beard
aaaahhhhh~~~
i dunno my darling can be sooooo handsome and macho
i always see him as my cute-and-adorable-lil-baby type of guy
not that oh-aragorn-is-so-macho-with-that-dirt-in-his-face
aaaahhhhh im so in love
yes dude
i do judge the book by its cover
waaahhhh
got quiz tomorrow
i hope i'll do well
been slacking off my study this semester
aaahhh
i want to eat crab curry
and that plain garlic and shrimp
i want my mom cooking
aahhh the snow has melted away
so sad i am
cause heatwave gonna get me sooner
well at least no more tears walking home from school
no more heavy coat
no more wet shoes
and of course spring means beautiful shoes
why am i bingeing?
i think my period gonna be like 2 more weeks
tensionnyaaa!!
whoever use the "fair and lovely"-and co are really total loser
there's no use have white face but dark hand and leg
its like living freak
who cares if you're have dark skinned
you afraid that you will got no boyfriend?
owh please!
life dont revolves around man, you freaking white-face!
in fact nobody cares about you being dark
there's a lot of ppl are darker than you
stop spending your money on that cream
or you better save up for your skin cancer treatment!
take my advice, use sunscreen instead...
o yeah
any foreign "quote" (for eg: japanese bullshit) in your msn nickname is totally not cool!
in fact it is so not cool it make me puke
im not impressed at all ,you poser!
burning with homework
buy myself a new laptop
yeay!
now i just can surf in my bed
feeling very nice
lot of sleep maybe
so not cranky
tomorrow got appt with prof
aahhhh and need to make a new ssn card
and return the book
want to do homework on my own
im tired of copying others
ah typical malay
physics is not my forte
i will never be physical engineer
well
find some fact
that swimming make you fit
but not make you slim
blergh
when im just about to swim everyday
so need to go to strenous gym again
i think im ready to jog now
let see how it goes
found a good lesson today
sitting in your desk for 2 freaking hours is not studying
unless you wrote or read something
stop staring at the homework, damn me!!
people that pissed me off:: politically radical... unless you really really want to be and have what it takes to be a leader...
if your just shouting your despised to your govt inside your blog or website or at the coffee shop, two words::shut up!!!!
and dont think i dont have mind of my own
you can have intellectual argument with me
that not including trying to push me into your radical thinking
respect my opinions and i respect yours
im not a baby who need to be tell whats right or wrong neither i will tell you
but you're just plain asshole if you trying to prove that you're right and im wrong
i have little interests in what you're trying to say to me
just dont shove your face in front of me
politic fanatics just pissed me off. period.
only pussy forwarded email
you will NEVER get good luck for sending the craps to 50 peoples
and hotmail will definitely NOT bankrupt
so please spare me from your frowarding-email-for-your-good-luck frenzy
well
its first day of school after spring break
and i miss my first class already!!
im such a lazy bum
im not trying hard enought this semester
its just i can never do well in those physics class
i just want to get over it as soon as possible
i dont want to deal with it anymore
aaahhh
malasnya nak gi kelas
schools sucks
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