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something ordinary
last modified Sep 4, 2004 at 7:15
my darling mad at me
hmmm... i dunno
right now i dont feel like talking to him
i feel bored
i want something else
im soooo fucked up in this relationship
:(
dunno what to say
done with school for a week
then have summer class
yeay
need job desperately
this blog and my bf is the only constant thing in my life
i mean, the only things that i commited
i tried to commit to so many thing
including losing weight
but no avail
oh im sooo badly sick right now
i have a fever and my face is sooo red
i think because of the burning
4 days fever, had subside a little bit
but i suspect i have a tonsillitis
my tonsil seem a lil bigger and have white spot on it
hmmmm let see how it goes after exam
my stomach rejects the food that i ate
havent puked for so long
i feel drowsy maybe i should sleep.
hmmmm
stressed out because i have exam tomorrow
want to sleep then cant because i know i will not enjoy the sleep
doing some desperate things today
the first and the last i hope
stressnyaaaaa
that one class that make me feeling worthless
busy schedule ahead
can feel the sleepless night now
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i can feel myself getting bigger each day
owh come on holidays
i need to slim down!
friday is really my day
i mean really
i have two guys trying to "ngorat" me
not at the same place/time though
aaaaaa
lamanyaaaa tak kena ngorat after couple
but i cant tell this to mr bf
mengamuk
the first guy is guy from work
he keep asking me to marry him
and keep telling ppl that im his wife
and so on...
its just flirting around and i play along
hahaha i just a good feeling
the second guy is the guy from coffee shop
aaaaaa this one i like
he is like the cutest coffee guy ever!!
he knows how i like my coffee
he is off work on that friday nite, but i see him sitting in the coffee shop
and he smiled at me!!!
goddammit and he is not working at that time
THEN HE GOT UP AND SAY HI TO ME
walawalawalawala
ok that's it
it nice to know that other ppl notice me
and it nice to know that there is one man that love me so much
ok this gonna be a very hectic week for me
i have to hand in my rewrite by tonight,
have group meeting on saturday
do another rewrite on sunday
exam on monday
presentation on tuesday
final report due on wednesday
lab report and notebook and poster due by friday
aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
im going to kill myself
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tips for great skin : moisturizer with sunscreen
spf 15 is ok
esp when u r in malaysia
the sun is making ur skin dry and all that
spring is coming and i already stocked up on my moisturizer and sunscreen
hahahahahaha
im afraid to be "dark"
i love my fair skin
right now already see myself a lil bit dark
soooooooooo
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i love my hair right now
the dark part already grew long enough
but im too lazy to chop off the dry part
hmmmm maybe after the exam
im soooo stressed out right now
dont even have time to mandi
hahahahah
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remind myself to go print some stuff after work today
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
yeay finally mom gave me some money
for sure she cannot resist her daughter plead for help
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mr bf already bought an apartment
sweet eh...
he said when i graduated i can stay at that apt
while he's working
lalalala
although i havent seen the apt yet
but i need to save up to buy nice bed set from here
victoria secret maybe
for our wedding day
also need to save up some money to buy plasma tv
aircond
and my books
need to buy a lot of book b4 going back home
lalalala
a cute bf with fat wallet
what else one should ask
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on another note
have to revise my weight loss plan
really need to sit down and do this
im tired of yo yoing
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pissed off with ppl that dont live up to their word
oiiii
jangan buat perangai babih aaaaa
first time asking for money from my mom
2nd time actually
the first one is for vacation
and this one is realllly for emergency
something happens to me
that i dont want to elaborate
but it involve money and me!
but havent heard anything for mommie
maybe she did not read my sms
:(
owuhhh
this is random anger
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i hate ppl that think her course is superior than other
there;s nothing great about being ee major
in fact you dont even suceed in that
so dont put the label in ppl
and said "course me senang je"
hah remember that you took the introductory me course
and dont even get an a??
in spring term??
so shut the hell up
and admit that you dont even excel in what you do
hahahahha
denial
senang je nak cakap orang bodoh
sbb sendiri tak sedar diri sendiri tuh bodoh
i dont remember the last time i walk without my thigh brushing at each other.
annoying but i accustomed to that
until recently a friend said she feel fat
because she can feel her thigh brushing each other when she walk
o god!!
i dont remember what's its like to walk freely!!
ive been fat for too long i dont remember how it feel to be thin again
a lot of thing that ive forget
-how its feel to wear a hip hugger jeans :(
-how its feel to wear a baby t
-how its feel to walk in a skirt
-how its feel to be thin
i cant continue
this make me depressed
:(
i guess a lot of stress just ruin everything
thank you
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i have this constant drama about my weight
but i never do anything about it
now im determined to control myself
stress-free or not
everything else can go to hell
:(
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