something ordinary

last modified Sep 4, 2004 at 7:15

my dad complimented me today
he said, i just need to lose 5 more kg and i'll look great

and i think that's soooo sweet

well I actually need to lose 20kg to look great btw
hahahahha

anyhooooo
i'm happy cause I managed to lose 10% of my body weight
and that's a lot, at least for me
so I have another month and half to lose 10kg
my goal is to be at 69 kg on the last day of puasa

156663 | posted by utopia at 10:51 | 0 comments

actually I always want to write about Mawi-Ina breakoff but i always have no time to write it down
i dunno why
but somehow Ina's reaction toward the whole thing and people response against Ina open my eyes on how unlucky Malay women are

I think Ina is amongst the first Malay women who dare to talk about her disappointment regarding her breakoff with Mawi
altho her action to publish a book was seen by people as ways to defame mawi and to raise popularity.

I, somehow, dont think so..

I love the fact she dares to publish her book
I consider her book as symbol of young Malay women's fight against injustice, against betrayal
I consider her book as the rise of Malay women whose right has been abused
and i seriously consider her book as a big FUCK YOU to the malay society

I'm an avid book collector
amongst my favorite theme is tale about Asian women who fighting for their right, about fighting against injustice
but sadly enough
there is no Malay author who published those kind of book until today.None!
Women's place in Malay society saddened me
there are NO malay women who willing to spoke out against injustice against them

I was so sad when read about people comment against Ina
Ina who has clearly been betrayed by her own first love, thru phone call nonetheless, after he become famous
This women sacrificed herself and went along thru thick and thin moment in Mawi's life is jeered by his fans...a lot of them
just because she published a book to defend herself against Mawi's betrayal

I am sad because most of those jeering at her are also women

Rasul himself trying so hard to elevate woman status in Islam
he is the icon of feminism, who protect women from injustice against men
why malay people can't follow his step?
why malay people still place women at the bottom

I'm very upset with the mindset of these people

Ina is nothing compare to other suffering malay women out there...
BUT I hope she will revolutionize the mindset of malay community

*i want to continue and polished this later

156616 | posted by utopia at 11:30 | 0 comments

i just want to write down my nazar
if i get the job
i will sedekah rm300 from my first gaji to the surau

hopefully i will get through the interview easily
and get the job as soon as possible

insya allah

156456 | posted by utopia at 9:59 | 2 comments

im pms-ing
so skarang nih teringin nak kahwin
i just want to get married

BUT
i dont want to be those people
who satisfied with what they got
im a materialistic person
i have goals in life
i want to have a car, a house, and lots of money before i get married
both of us want that

but right now...
it feels like i dont care
i just want to get married
just give me a ring, a quran, and kenduri money
i'll be happy

BUT
i have my mom's feeling to spare
orang2 sekeliling lagik...kang free2 kena fitnah
kalo kawin camtuh

but you know
at times like this...
when i have menstrual cramp
all i need is someone to warm my tummy up

sigh
susahnyaaaaa laaaa nak kawin

156416 | posted by utopia at 10:59 | 0 comments