buy myself a new white jumper(looks cool to me!) a new reebok shoe and a new tight short...seem like going for a jog right...actually i am! i cant wait for the spring to come. I want to register myself into those nice step aerobic which actually cost me $55 bucks!!! but i dont care...i have this resolution...by summer i want to lose at least 30 pound...and thats mean no more food delivery for me...only those good cooking (or not at all) meal and those aerobic class and maybe(i said maybe) jogging or rollerblading. I'm determined in losing my weight. I've been feeling unhealthy this few month and it depressing!(i know all the "big" people out there knows what i feel) i want to get back to normal weight that i've been before. Not too skinny not fat...just nice shape(nice by my standard of course)... 
really...being fat is depressing. you walk in the store and come out so frustrated because you took those size 12 (!!) pants and dont even can get into it...and you too ashamed to try those 14's size (or maybe feel scared...what if i dont even can wear those?) this is what i feel...being size 12 is bad enough...but >14? its depressing, 
i know this feeling because im fat. I dont even fit into those khaki's pant that i love most(because it was so baggy the time i bought them) and it hurts me much. But it is really my fault,I am too lazy to shake my ass and let those fat goes away...im just too lazy...i hope this spring will bring good news to me...im desperately need to lose some pounds!!!! 
yeah yeah...enough of my rambling about my ugliness. But i dont care...im cute and i know if i lose some fat...i'll be even cuter...so aerobic class!! here i come!!

last modified Apr 5, 2003 at 16:45

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