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people killin
people dyin
children hurt and
women cryin
will you practice what you preach
and would you turn the other cheek
father father father, help us
need some guidance from above
these people got me got me questionin
where is the love?
(love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
where is the love?
(love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(the love) where is the love?
(where is the love the love my love
-where's the love[black eyed peas]-
current song i danced to
damn....this song rocks...currently
rite now i'm bored to death....i just done with my academic plannig...spends hours to re-do my study plan as i change my major....
wohoo good news is i will be back home 3 semester earlier if i stick to my study plan...
if that so..i may considered of getting master....i want to be lecturer...dont think i'll enjoy life as an engineer...
when i told my friend about my want to be a lecturer...she really grilled me...one of the reason is "kurang ah engineer melayu karang"
hmmmm quite interesting....actually i really dont know what i want to do....i want to be a house-wife  but i know that'll break my parents heart and i dont think i want to let go all the suffering that i've been through here in State...i have to let others suffer too hahahahah that's why i want to be a lecturer....
back to my study plan....i have to reconsider my plan to do minor in math....because i can finish early and i really hate it here...i dont want to stay any longer...
next fall i will dedicate my time to work and study only....my bf is far far away rite now...so now i really dont have things to blame if i still messed up with my study...and i want to work hard too...good money baby!!
i want to go back home next year and i want to buy stuff for my family back home...some of them are
-digital camera [not sure if this will happens but i really want my family to have this at least....i hate my snob cousins who always think they are too rich to have all the gadgets...come on that's your mom's money...not yours ..so please dont shove that darn things in my face...]
-ps2 or xbox...maybe ps2...but i doubt if they use it..everyone seems busy in my home
-latest correlle..of course this is for my mom...i dont even know why ppl is so drooling about this correlle's stuff
-Levis's , Guess ,anything branded for my sis and bro...actually those thing is so damn cheap here...but if i bring it back home...everyone will open their eye
am i sound like i'm a showy person? yup....i am actually...i am a showy person...my cousins and aunties and uncles never recognized me going to States as something "it"...all they want to see is how cool is your house is....how long your kitchen has been expanded....what kind of material i used to do my baju raya [by the way i never tailored made mine...i just bought mine as is]
my parents is not really act the ways my uncles and aunties did...all they ever show is living as simple as we can...and study the farthest as we can...my mom only have SRP and my dad only got SPM...but they shows the quality of intellect people...
my mom is really strict about our study...
i remember that when i was in primary school...i never got into top 5....and sometime in top ten....somewhere when i'm in primary 3 my mom said if i ever make it to top 5 she'll buy me a nice watch...and i never have real watch...i mean the metal one...not the cheap plastic...i was very determined and as the result i make it to top 5 and i get this gold-plated women watch which is so precious to me that i wear it until PMR
from UPSR to PMR to SPM...every A means money...yup...you got me...my parents bribed me hahahahha
i excelled in all the national examination but the pride never long...
never ever my aunties and uncles give me a pat in the back for what i have achieved...they dont even care about their own child's perfomance in school
now...my family can be considered as the excellent one...my brother's has just finished his diploma and maybe will further his study...i'm in States..and my sis doing good in UPSR and PMR too...and this year will be sitting for SPM...and i hope she's doing fine
i will never get the respect that i want....but i can proved that me going to States means more latest gadget in my house...
fuuhhhh i wrote a lot today...i'm so sorry...i'm just bored and insomniac
i wrote this as a token of appreciation to what my family has done to shape me be a better person today....and also as the way to thanks them for making me richer this week hahhahaha
if only they read this...
last modified Jul 28, 2003 at 0:24
buat aje.
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