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just now i watched the old Friends episode.Not from the beginning though..it was about Monica is afraid to marry chandler...she's talking about the "rush" of seeing anyone new..you know..when you like someone and you feel the "anxiety, palm sweating..dehydrating...."Monica afraid the marriage will make her losing the feeling of "rush"
and i think that is what im missing in my life....
me and my bf is so close that there's no secret between us...it feels like he is me and i know he feeling the same way too
i never have this "butterfly in the stomach" each time he called...unlike 2 yrs ago...whenever his number appear in my hp screen ...i can even hear the rythmn of my heart's beat.
i miss the feeling...the rush feeling
i know with our relationship there is no way i will feel it again
hmmmm maybe on the day we engage or maybe [insyaAllah] on the day we wed...
after marriage?
who knows
but right now...with i never heard his voice for almost a month now...i guess when he call i will have this rush again
cause i miss him teribbly
last modified Sep 2, 2003 at 21:13
i miss him...that's why there's every possibility-good and bad-lingered in my head..anyway thanks for the words hanyasayang and unsunghero....at least i know there still will be the feeling of anticipation in my love's life 
hi utopia . I used to feel the same thing too but now I understand that love happens in stages too. Just like playing a jigsaw puzzle. First there's the rush and excitement of seeing so many pieces and imagining how nice it'll be when it's done, then...there's the actual putting it together stage...and this is where some couple will thrive while some give up due to complications (this is basically getting to know each other stage where most of the emotion is involved) and finally...when all the pieces has been put together and the puzzle is completed, you'll get this satisfied feeling that you did it, eventhough there's nothing much to do anymore...not that much rush...but you know you've worked hard to get there...so..why not enjoy it . By the way utopia..the rush is not gone...it's still there...it just needs to be rekindled or ignited. Wish u all the best.
PS: I once asked my english teacher how did she know he husband was the one and if she loved him. She said, love is about feeling that you can be your absolute self with him, no pretence, he knows u and u know him and u can be sure that u love him when u feel u are comfortable and safe with him. Honestly...I think she's right.
...hilang tidak, cuma mungkin menanti waktu untuk berputik kembali, terbit semula
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