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im cant sleep
for some reason Ju on is soooo scary for me
i miss him so much
we ended our phone conversation by yelling at each other
and i go to bed mad
wishing i didnt know him on the first place
wishing that we never exist
wishing for another lover
i feel horrible
6 unanswered call goes by without me touching the phone
i just stared and let the ring off
i feel terrible
this is no good
both for me
for him
this is sooo painful
living so far away from him
cant even hear him daily
i want a boyfriend
that always there for me
doing laundry together
cooking meal together
go shopping together
or at least can plan a date once a week
its been 19 freaking month living all alone
away from each other
yes i do survive
he do survive
we survive
but its such a suffering
my sleep cycle is screwed up!!
i need to study
two exams is coming up this weeks
and i havent studied a single things yet
well well well
im so fucked up
aaahhhh need to sleep
last modified Mar 15, 2004 at 22:35
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